Anbu's Corner

Zhongguo Xinnian Kuaile

2011-01-20T18:13:00.000+08:00

Reaching the particular days soon, I know I know but I won’t be blogging about Zhongguo Xinnian on the days. For those of you who doesn’t understand what is ‘Zhongguo Xinnian’, Zhongguo means Chinese also China, and Xinnian means New Year, and Kuaile completes the greeting ‘Happy Chinese New Year’. Kuaile is Happy in greeting. Okay. I maybe wrong since I’m very amateur in Chinese.

Back to my school days when I was in Standard One, my first Chinese friend, Chindian actually, Dinesh Hong. And my first enemy in the same class eventually became friend, Gan Chun Bee. I was competing with Dinesh in studies when I was in Primary school. I do not know whether he has noticed that before. Dinesh mostly faired better than me in test and exams and we always end up at top five in them. Gan Chun Bee although has spoiled my stationeries and sometime steal them too, it is because of him I got 100% in my English Final Test during Standard One. That naughty guy eventually became a prefect in school. Anyhow we are not in touch now but I still remember them. Hope we would be bumped into each other one day.

The first Chinese woman that I had crush on is my English teacher in Standard Six. Haha. I don’t remember her name. She was a petite with glasses and thin. Can’t talk much about her. Teacher. Must RESPECT!!.

And the first Chinese child who became so close to me, Phoebe Ng. I like children but who don’t. She is very adorable to many because she has a gut to approach and talk to anyone no matter what is their age, but she is also a shy person sometimes. Everytime I takes her picture, she will give me a look like she wanted to bash my face. But I am guy that likes to take candid shots. I would say that her parents are really blessed and she is blessed with a wonderful mother. I do not about her father because I have never met him but he must be a wonderful man too. I am hoping to see her growing up into a beautiful woman one day. Things might change in time. People might move or migrate.

In New Year, new resolutions, new hope, new commitment, new dream occurs and some are still to be continued. No matter what, Chinese community has been always giving a wonderful environment during the season. The colour of red and gold, the oranges, the series of songs in television, the good back to back movies, and not forgetting the fire-crackers and lion dance. That’s the time that we get bonuses from employer to be given away as ang-paus. Note that. “ANG-PAU”. So when I come to your house this New Year, ehem, please give me your bonus in Ang-pau packet.

Have a Prosperous New Year everybody. GONG XI FA CHAI!!!.

If my sentences are like clumsy bear, please pardon me because I couldn't concentrate with my typing since I'm having a severe pain on my right shoulder. Thank you

Silly and Jolly with FOUR Letter Words

2010-11-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

Words are powerful. They can poignant a person. They can sensationalize a person’s emotion. They can challenge a person. They can zeal a person. They can make a person to fall in love. They can give happiness to a person. They can tease a person. They can annoy. They can even kill a person or give purpose to live.

Recently I had a bulb suddenly beamed on top of my head about FOUR letter words. So I thought of sharing on what I could think of.

The poignant type:
What would be your feelings when the people that you love so much says, “I HATE you!”?
That word can prick through our hearts and bring down the spirit of even a steel-hearted person.

The sensation type:
When a teenage boy gets a reply from his crush, “I LIKE you too”, now that’s the ‘you cannot catch me cause I’m flying in the air now’ feeling. It’s a bit different from “I love you” in terms of at what maturity level crush happens.

The challenging type:
FAIL. That’s the word that we always try to avoid in every task we do. For example when we are playing Playstation game, we do not want our character to fail the mission, especially when we are eager to see the challenges waiting for the next round.

The zeal type:
I would like quote the Billi Lim’s best selling book’s title, “DARE To Fail”. The title explained well of the contents. One of the phrases in his book is, ‘Success is at the far sight of failure. We always pass a patch called failure on our way to success.’

The falling in love type:
Definitely it is the universal language, “I LOVE you”. This word is more likely to give higher emotional impact on females. The word ‘LOVE’ hardly comes out from a guy’s mouth. Easy for a guy to say, “I like you” for he knows the commitment he can promise is less than “I love you.” But when a guy truly loves his girl, his simple “I love you” is the magical charm in his relationship.

The happiness type:
Back to our kindergarten years, getting 100% in our maths at Form Five is never like getting stars with the word ‘GOOD’. We would bring back that marked assignment and bother our parents to show those stars and ‘Good’ remarks though those were given because we counted the apples and balls correctly. To prove it, how many of us did the same at Form Five?

The teasing type:
One of my friends who is a non-Hindu, Chinese craving for ‘Murukku’, an Indian chips or bites served especially during Deepavali. Few days after the festival, she posted that she wanted ‘Murukku’ in her Facebook. I commented, “BURP” and she replied, “So EVIL”. Like she felt teased with my, “burp”, and I felt teased too with her, “So evil”. It’s down grading my talent on teasing. She supposed to say, “So devil” rather than, “so evil”. Haiz…

The annoying type:
Try calling your girlfriend ‘BABE’ constantly everyday. But don’t just stop with that. Try more like, “Ma babe feelin fine? Aint no drugs for yo, but ma got sugar for ma babe. I luv yo babe.”
Well. They can be very nice for somedays but, gradually will annoy your girl.
Yo do wan to see yo babe replying “swt -.-!” dontcha?

The murdering type:
It’s none other than the word ‘HATE’ again. Do not ever tell this word to your parents deep from your heart. This word can slowly kill them.

The purpose to live type:
Purpose to live that I meant here is not purpose to stay alive but to live life abundantly. Especially to parents, how did you feel when your child called you MAMA or PAPA?
How do you feel when you remember back the moments where your child would run to you with wide stretched arms and shouting in joy, “MAMA!!!!” or “PAPA!!!”?
And of cause that the child will grow up and make your life miserable in future but, can anything else equal the moments of those two words?

Last but not least is about me. First would be my name, ANBU. Anbu means LOVE in Tamil and it carries a great meaning to me.
Secondly would be the name that my friend, Yoanna gave me. “BUBU.” I assume that she loves dogs so much that the only way she could show her love is by treating me like a dog. Well. Maybe for my next birthday she will buy me a collar. Whatever makes her happy?
Finally for granddaughter Nicole, my LAME jokes. They are inseparable from me, girl. Catch you sometimes for snooker.
CHAO!

Girls Are Kicking Balls Around Nowadays

2010-10-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

Before I begin, I know what you are thinking, boys. -.-! (Whatever makes you happy?)

When I was in high school, a male teacher (can’t remember his name) told my class that those days Form Sixes are dominated by male students, but today situation has changed. Universities, Elite Classes, Curricular Competitions and Grades are dominated by females.

If you look at the Employment Field, many females are white collared compare to males, but the fact is (referring to today’s, 05 October 2010 http://www.msn.com/ main page topic) female employees are still less paid at average compare to male employees.

Very often, we read people blame the education system not being fair to the boys and female employees are paid low because of their maternity.

Based on my experience as a male student who comes from the background of all-boys schools, I did see there is a lot of difference between having many male teachers around and having few or none. When I was in primary, we had many male teachers in my school. For us, those were the great days. People say about fatherly love often is the reason why having male teachers around could give some impact on the boys’ academic performance. It is not about fatherly love. We boys like to be rough and act macho and immature among us. When we need to be motivated, we need a male teacher. When we do sports, we need a male teacher. When we are fighting with our schoolmates, we need a male teacher. And I mean a real ‘MALE’ teacher. We need somebody who can pull down our egos, discipline us, and make us to be serious in studies but at the same time to provide us fun (football, basketball, hockey) when we are bored of studying. In short, we need somebody who can make boys remain boys while excelling. If a female teacher wants to do these, she must be the dominating type and not many female teachers can do so. So to handle the many number of boys, supplies of a few male teachers are not enough.

This may look like some excuses to cover the decreasing grades and performance of the boys, but it is true that psychological readiness is important for male students to face challenges like boys. Schools are the basic platforms for whatever types of males we are producing for this country.

But to be fair to girls, the current education situation is gradually firming their potentiality. It will be not fair to them if we go back to what the education system was. Somewhere the system must draw back the boys into its runway.

For the employment part I will leave it first.

Why Chinese prefer English names?

2010-08-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

Why Chinese prefer English names?

Some say, “Because they sound cool, mah.”
Some say, “Easy to pronounce lo.”
Some say, “So that I can get one leng-lui at every one year. Which one do you think chics will fall for? Tan Wee Hong or Jacky Tan? (I think Anbu Tan sounds cooler)

Anyway, the answer for the question above maybe lies in my experience. Well. I am not a Chinese and that is for sure but my sharing could be vely vely helpful for you guys.

The following are the scenarios that have taken place in my office whenever I make or receive calls:

Scene 1

Trut.. Trut.. (Making a call)

Person No 1: Good morning. Bla bla bla Sdn Bhd.

Me: Hello. I’m calling from Sukat Bahan. May I speak to Mr. Bla Bla, please?

Person No 1: Who’s on the line?

Me: Anbu

Person No 1: Undrew? (Actually she said “Andrew?”)

Me: No. Anbu. A-N-B-U.

Person No 1: Oh… A-N-D-U. Mr. Undo, he is in a meeting. Could you try him later?
Thank you.

Scene 2

Ring…ring… (Receiving a call)

Me: Good evening. Sukat Bahan.

Person 2: Halo. Mr. Chong got ah?

Me: Who am I speaking to, please?

Person 2: Jenna from RE Property. He’s there ah?

Me: Sorry. Mr. Chong is on leave. He will be back on Friday. Is there any
message for him?

Person 2: Never mind. I call him on Friday. What’s your name ah?

Me: Anbu.

Person 2: Huh?! Hantu?! (Should have reminded her that now is Hungry Ghost Season)

Me: No. Anbu.

Person 2: How to spell your name?

Me: A-N-B-U. Anbu

Person 2: Ok. Mr. Undo. I’ll call on Friday.

Me: Okay. Thank you.

Haiz…. WHY?!! WHY?!!... Maybe I should start introducing myself as Christie, but people might send faxes to me with “Attn: Ms. Christy”

Or maybe like Anwar who made famous of himself with SODOMY crime in court, I should make myself famous with “YOU-KNOW-ME?” crime.

We Stand United

2010-06-24T17:59:00.000+08:00

Why we see colours?
Why we categorize people by their race's economy?
Why should there be the term, "Loser"?

You know. All of them are within our blood. We do all these because we learned from somebody, but don't you agree these should change?
All these stereotyping will only hurt people. They bring no good. I say that this is some kind of People-phobia disease.

I was not so far from this disease once upon a time. Although until now, since my primary school I have more Chinese friends than Indian friends, and infact of all races, I still saw them as some kind of threat. My elders, still in the fancied-fear of the May 13 incident, installed me viruses of, "Beware of other race" into my 'hard-disk', and for that I sometimes have labelled my friends, "Chinese are cheaters", "Malays are lazy" and "East Malaysian are Malays too and therefore they are also lazy people."

This is what my thinking was until I learned the meaning of the word, 'Catholic'. Catholic is not just the term we use to indentify a group of Christians but it also has a meaning. The word Catholic taken from Greek word, Katholikos, also means "throughout the world" or "Universal". At that time, I realized that I belong to the whole world and not just to one race. And I was also trying to suit the word 'Universal' to my name which also means, 'flame of love'. It suits well. Love is universal. And flame of love? Wow!

It only takes love to see people beyond colour, beyond their economy, beyond their personality. And infact, my third point, "Why should there be the term, "Loser"?", is not only about personality but also about race. Sometimes we see or label some race as 'lazy'. "These people not like us. Hardworkers." Or sometimes, "We shouldn't do business with these people. They are not good in business"

In my view, no race is hardworking or good in business. All these are born from our attitudes. In this world, the billionaires and millionaires are mixed with all kind of races. Some earned them, and some inherit them from their fathers. So. Not even all the billionaires and millionaires are harworkers or good business-persons. It's all in the attitude. And infact, there are also some people who are happy with their finance although they are not millionaires. So. If you are not billionaire or millionaire also does not mean that you are lazy or 'loser'

Love is the key. Stand united.

Declare Beauty Again. You know why I say this almost in my every blog posts? I have seen the beauty of what I am sharing and I am excited to share it to you. So. To you too, Declare Beauty Again.

I'm Starting to Hate KL..

2010-06-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

Been working in KL since Nov 2008, but before this, I was travelling to KL every Sunday for mass and now i got fed up with KL.
Travelling every Monday to Friday... Taking public transport instead of own since it is more convenient... I am really a kampung boy instead of town freak... I like to be 'selekeh' but that doesn't mean I go work also 'selekeh'... I dress to proper though not to trendy.. I just don't care about being trendy...
Walking pass Petaling Street every morning and after work... nevertheless the unwanted disturbance of 'chickens'... "Mau masuk, bang?".... I was like, "Masuk apa?"... Sometimes I wonder that should I buy them breakfast whenever I am early... but never did.. I pity them... But one scenario that I could never forget is about an old man who is actually a 'Bapak Ayam' everyday will come out to the street with some joysticks saying, "Ong Lai.. Ong Lai..".... I was like, "Idiot.. Me doing legal job also never did this."...
Another reason, I think I am turning into some sort of a carbon-monoxide-polluted-homosapien... I'm getting darker!!!... Man!!... Dah lah single, now got another problem?.... This is really a serious problem, actually... I mean really really serious... For example, like today, as I was walking down the street from Pudu to Kota Raya, a young chic was walking from the opposite direction took a curve when walking pass me... I was like, "Huh?!"... I really thought that I wanted to suddenly step forward towards her just to freak her out...
Well... I should still thank KL for providing me more opportunities to upgrade myself.. I should thank especially the firm I am working with because there I progressed well in my job... I mean, I came there as a Trainee in November 2008 and now I was promoted three times since then to Technical Executive that is promising gold mine in near future... But. I still hate KL. Should find a job in Puchong.... Hhmmm

Phone Marriage

2010-05-18T16:34:00.000+08:00

On Monday, I read an article in the Sun about Phone Marriage. Yes. Phone Marriage, a new way of getting married long distance these days.

"Bleat-bleat! Hello? Who's speaking? Will you marry me? Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today over this crackly phone line to celebrate holy matrimony." Source, The Sun.

What kind of an idiot will do this? I mean, even if you know that person, why this should be an option? Who knows that someone could be getting married through phone while he's in a bed with another guy. Well just giving an example of extreme possibilities.

Imagine Justin Lim is getting married through phone, and maybe he invited me to be his witness. Well, I would still be glad to volunteer myself as a witness just to enjoy the show. He says, "I do." She says, "I do, too."

After a month, she flew in to Malaysia to meet her husband for the first time. I would gladly arrange their honeymoon at a nice, romantic, expensive place for these beautiful and handsome couple, just to get a shock from him on his honeymoon night. "Anbu!!... She got balls!!..."

"Err.. Justin... Isn't that a little bit too much to tell about your wife to me like this?", says me.

"No!.. I mean, she got balls, below!.. Help me, Anbu... Please... Help me...", says Justin, crying..

NB: This story has never happened. It is just a precaution example. Have a nice day, guys.

Who am I? What is my mission?

2010-05-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

There are always some questions running in my head since I was 21yr. "Who am I?... What is my mission?... What am I called to do?.."

Well, they may sound like an action movie phrases, but these are what is going through my head for over 6 years. It's like I am sailing in the middle of an ocean looking for a dry land. Many times I believed that I might be called for being this or that and try to relate it to my talents and knowledge so that I could one day say, "Aha....This is it". But, I am just a 'Jack of many trades, master of non'.

Maybe my name carries the answers for my questions... Or maybe it just an answer rather that answers.

Anbuchudar Christie = Anbu (Love, Cinta) + Chudar (Flame, Api) + Christie (Christ, Kristus)

Anbuchudar Christie = Christ's flame of love = Api cinta Kristus.

Love endures all things and Love never ends. I hope that this what I am here for. To be the Christ's Flame of Love

7th May on Investment

2010-05-07T18:48:00.000+08:00

Talking about investment... how do you see investment in your life?... What does the word investment means to you?

Today, 7th May, is the last day of industrial practice for two trainees from TAR college at the place I work. During lunch, we were talking about investment. We shared our opinions about it and came up with some further thoughts.

The way I see investment is almost every relevant thing could be an investment. The education, work, adventure, savings, share market, royalty, insurance, sharing thoughts, practicing skills... every relevant things and happenings around us could be some investments. For each of them brings good and improvement. So investment is not always about money only.

During our conversation, Liew, on of the trainee asked me, "How about girlfriend? Isn't she could be some sort of investment too?"

Well. Behind every man's success, there is a woman. She could be your mother, sister, grandma, a friend, a best friend, sister-in-law, a relative, girlfriend and even the one you love the most other than these people, your 'inspiration'. But no love should be conditional so I disagree if they should be seen as investments to some men.

Every things and happenings that could bring improvement to our self, to our intellectual, to our pocket, to our every bid of us as persons and gladly take up the challenge for the future and their benefits. To chase our dream/s, everything that is benefiting is significant.

But....Sometimes to do good, we need to sacrifice our dream/s. And you and I know that our love for our dream/s never fades.

Behold Your Future

2010-04-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

Behold your future. A questionnaire best describes your marital status.

A. Single
B. Married
C. Other
D. Refused

The first and second options are logical enough but, what would qualify 'Other'? And why do people wanted to know whether we'd been 'Refused' or not? Haiz..

Referring to the experiment did by a narrator of The Sun, he distributed this questionnaire to some people in a bar. Five minutes later all have answered except an elderly man who was still answering.

Some answered the first and second options. After a few minutes, the elderly man finally handed his paper. He had ticked 'Other'. So the narrator asked him, "But what do you mean by that? Are you married or not?".

He replied, "I had to thick 'Other' because my answer to that question is Can't Remember."

During the survey, one doleful young man has ticked 'Refused'. He then was curious about why do people wanted to know that he had been refused.

"Maybe they reckon guys like you are such total losers that they don't even want you on their spam list," said the narrator and he added this phrase in his article, 'Life is hard'.

Anyway, when I read this article, I found out that it refers mainly to men than women, since the narrator has mentioned that there are definitely two men and others remain as others without their genders stated. It also has triggered my curiosity of why women stay single. Since we have got a fair answer on why men stay single, what about women then?

Be noted that I'm not referring to all singles. Just the 'Refused' one.

They can't be falling under the same category as men. Losers?! Sincerely I would like to know why they are single since many of them are still pretty. Not to make them laughing subjects but I would like to understand their reasons too.

For the girls who may not understand why some guys stay single, I could give an example of myself but it may not be the best one. Long story cut short, I met a girl; falls in love; was never accepted; felt so rejected and heart broken; was curious to know whether this is a love or a crush and hoping it is a crush; tried to open my heart to another girl; but still can't forget her; spoiled the beautiful friendship between her and me; and still seeking for forgiveness from her.

I went through all these heart-aching moments and still hoping her forgiveness. At one time I finally accepted that she is not for me. I may not open my heart to any other girl forever. Nobody has stolen my heart at the first sight like she did but, 'Unconditional Love' could still exist in a friendship.

Declare Beauty Again

A joke to share

2010-03-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Story #1

A man went to a clinic to get some treatment. He saw there were four rooms for those in out-patient category to serious level of case, each separated accordingly. He was curious to know about how the nurse select which patient enters which room, so he asked her,

"I see four rooms with different level of patient-illness category. How do you categorize us accordingly?"

She answered, "Well. We test the patients by filling a bathtub full with water and give them a tea-spoon, a big mug, and a pail, and ask them to empty the bathtub."

And the man immediately replied, "Oh. I get it. The one who uses the pail is at the normal condition. You treat the person in the first room."

"No" said the nurse with a smile. "Normal people will just unplug the trap. You don't have to take the test. I know the right room for you"

Story # 2

Every morning, Sandy will stand out at the entrance and shout, "Thank you, Lord!", before she starts her day.

Tommy, who stays at the next door, will always shout back to her, "There is no God!. You are lame."

And Sandy will reply, "You are wrong. God is everywhere."

One day, Sandy has no enough money to buy her groceries, so she stood outside her house and shouted, "Lord. I have no enough money to buy some groceries. I know you can help me. Please send the groceries to me."

Surprisingly there was no reply from Tommy. Sandy did notice that but she is not interested to know why.

In the evening, the door-bell rang and Sandy opens her door. At the entrance, there was a bag of groceries but nobody was around. She was so happy to see the groceries and she shouted, "Thank you Lord. Thank you for the groceries."

And Tommy replied, "There is no God!. You are lame. It was I who bought you the groceries"

" Oh yes there is God". She replied. "He is the One who bought the groceries and made the devil pay them."

C my life

2010-03-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Sometime before I have noticed that my life is involved with many things that start with the letter C.

First, my name is Anbuchudar Christie. Some people prefer calling me Christie rather than calling me Anbu or Sudar.
I prefer to take up challenges. Challenge enjoys both failure and win. Just that, sometime i give time for certain things before i take them as challenges.
I give importance to charismatic attitude for myself and on others. This is how i got involved in reviving Chess Challenge Club and Catholic Students Society and became their chairperson too.
I am a Christian, a Catholic. Well it should be Roman Catholic, but I prefer addressing myself as a Catholic.
As a Church goer, i get involved in it's social and spiritual activities too. There, I teach Catechism, get involve with youth activities and KUBM (Bahasa Malaysia Apostolate), a musician and a trainer for Bahasa Malaysia choir.
As for an animal, I like cat. I don't care whether it is domestic cat or the wild big cat.
As for re-energizing phrase, I always say in my heart that "I am a champion. GAMBATTE!!"
I have more Chinese friends of all races, but I never picked-up their language.
I prefer their food too, and my most favourite is Char Koey Teow (Fried Koey Teow).
My all-time favourite PC games are Championship Manager and Counter Strike. Board games are Chess and Chinese Chess.

The Greatest is Love

2010-02-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

Love is patient and kind;
Love is not jealous or boastful;
It is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on its own ways;
It is not irritable or resentful;
It does not rejoice at wrong.
But rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things,
Believes all things,
Hopes all things,
Endures all things.
Love never ends...
So Faith, Hope, Love abide, these three;
But the greatest of these is
Love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8, 13

Thanks to Sexylicia...http://aliciayanlyn.blogspot.com/

Release me, Lord

2010-02-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

Ever faced that someone that you love the most, hates you?

Life afterall is cruel in a way. I have said 'Live life abundantly', 'Life is beautiful', 'Declare beauty again'.... and more, but today, I feel like that I am standing at a stage where life is telling me that I am useless.

I put the blame on me. If I could, I just wanted to vanish from this world, but that would be very coward thought. You could ask me whether I have tried to change the situation. I did try, but I couldn't continue. I could never think of another girl except her. But why is this happening if this is impossible? Why this agony?

But forget about all these. Can't I just move forward? Why holding me to her?

Everything You do upon me Lord is good. That is what i am trying to believe without doubt. I know it is true but I am just an ordinary person. Release me from this pain.

Greetings 2010...

2010-01-01T03:42:00.000+08:00

As the new year is here, I was wondering whether i would be the same person as i am now.

Since young, my life was very much complex that i hardly had a choice to choose freely. Choosing an option from anything and choosing an option from provided things are different.

When i was young, my life was full of pampering though i do get beaten by my mom. I was always the kid that was seen as the bookworm, or the smart freak in my neighbourhood and among my relatives. Secondly, since my mom's side were all Catholics, i was a figure of wanna-be-priest to them. For that purpose, i always try to watch-out my behaviour whenever i was with them. The best part was, i always get extra cash (ang-pows) compare to my sisters.

During these days, my performance as a leader is zero. I had never tried to take a lead but had been always with books and play-in-school-only activities, a simple say, very much introvert. This was how i was growing up from child to a young teenager, until somebody put a mirror in front of me.

Once when i was in Form Two going Form Three, my cousin who is much older than me, told my mom in front of me that i could obtain many more certificates and praises in academics but, i still would end up as untalented and unsuitable to perform in profession. That was my turning point in my life.

Form Three entering a new school gave me a break through from my introvert life-style. I was entering from all-boys La Sallian to a mixed-gender school for the first time. Frankly, my break through all started with some blushings. Meeting girls who are totally strangers and talking to them, was never on my mind, but there was my training base of my disturbing-girls attitude. Even till today, i have this attitude and it seems not stopping for the moment.

From introvert to extrovert. From being an audience to a person that takes the lead and perform. Making mistakes in leadership and learning to do them better and better. A lot of changes have happened in my life, and i enjoy them.

But yet, i had never changed that much. There were times that i like to not to meet people, being crazy, and taking lead. There were times that i enjoyed being lonely, doing something with full of seriousness and being led by others. Because of i could balance my extrovert and introvert attitudes, i was able to learn and teach basic theology, scripture, biology, history, being passionate about sacred music, and much more. And at the same time, behaving like a crazy person, being a risk taker and being bold to open a topic in table talk and much more.

Changes happen in our life. This year, we could be facing some new agendas in our life. Whatever they are, Live Life Abundantly.

Happy New Year, Friends.....

Evolution

2009-12-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

From the joker.....

To friendly pal.......

To wannabe serious guy......

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But still a bit retarded....

To weirdo....

Aha..A bit changed......

This is my look now, baby....

What Is The Problem, Exactly?

2009-12-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

When you're 14yrs and have a crush on a boy who doesn't seem to quite fancy you the way you want him to, school hours can be both a pleasure and a pain.

When you're 24 and your relationship ends because he's a lot less compatible than you initially thought, your weekends are pretty lonely but you are soon distracted by plans with friends and meeting new people.

When you're over 30 and don't seem to have met a person whom you deem worthy of spending the rest of your life with, you begin to wonder if such a person really exists.

What is the problem, exactly?

There doesn't seem to be a short supply of men. If they are strictly batting for the right team, we comb through his background for any pyschopathictendencies or knife-welding ex-girlfriends while running the risk of looking a little obsessive ourselves as we Google and Facebook every inch of his life.

When all looks relatively normal and safe, we begin our mission of making him fall for us - dressing in outfits that we think may be a style he fancies, acting as nonchalantly desirable as possible in his company and doing just above everything else short of using a love potion. Or sometimes even that.

This is the part where the plan is most likely to fall apart. We are thrown back to the realm of teenage-hood where the guy is either obvious, too intimated or not bothered enough to pursue with peoms and flowers.

What is it that we should do? Nowadays men of the 'right age', looks and financial bracket are thinner than a cling wrap.

This is when many women of our generation realise that this advanced and equal society comes at a price.

Men see us not as the precious and fragile flower we were once perceived and treated as. We are now their counterparts, their competitors or even their bosses.

Can we blame them for being intimated or even a little afraid?

Source: Xandria Ooi, The Star

Further are my opinions. These can be argued as wrong or agreed.

1. First. It takes a great courage for a guy to say "I love you" to the girl he loves. He could say that because he believes in himself. He therefore, should be considered to be considered.

2. For those who are in relationship, appreciate what you have now. Guys are guys. They can't be thinking like girls. So, it takes a big effort to change them if you wanted to and it is not a one year or two year thing.

3. For those who are now in late 20's and early 30's and still single, open your eyes again. Do not yet draw a square or a circle around you that stops a guy to approach you.

Declare beauty again

1Malaysia..... Really meh...

2009-10-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

Our new Prime Minister, Najib, has come up with a new vision of the governing party and enhance it to the vision of whole nation. Well. It is a necessary path to take to ensure that the governing party stays strong with the support of the nation. Yeap... I am sharing about '1Malaysia'.

The nation is looking forward for everyone to tolerate everyone. And with tolerance, we live in harmony. Doesn't matter that you are a Malay, or a Chinese or an Indian, we all could live in harmony...Bla..bla..bla..

It's either our Prime Minister did not realise his vision properly, or the media dont get what our PM is thinking. But I could see clearly that our media is not on the right track on this vision or I may call it as our government's policy.

First. Each one of us are special and different from others even to a very specific group of people. Another Indian would have a very different practice from me. Infact, another Tamil would have a different believe, family traditions and more.. Once, when I was in CSS'09 camp at Port Dickson, there was a topic on Stereotype. In that topic, all the participants were separated in pairs of different races and to share about our culture, believes, food and many more. Then, the sharing was opened to the floor and one Indian guy, I believe he is a Tamil, shared that Indians are not allowed to find their life partners. Parents arrange them. Well. Definitely my parents are okay with me finding my partner. Infact, both my parents are once lovers. Coming back to the point, differences should not be tolerated but should be accepted. I could firmly say that nobody understands anybody, totally. Stop trying to understand and accept with love.

Second. The media has failed to see that Malaysia is formed with more than three races. All I could see in the advertisements is UMNO, MCA and MIC. And I really dont know why it should be UMNO, MCA and MIC. Why not MCA, MIC and UMNO or MIC, UMNO and MCA?
In West Malaysia itself, we have Baba Nyonya, Portugese, Sikhs, Orang Asli and lots more that I dont know. In East we have Bidayuh, Kadazan, Murud, Melanau, Iban, Dayak and lots more.

Adding to the second point. What about those who are mixed? One positive point of people who are mixed that it is hard to be racist to them. Infact I have tried to a friend of friend of mine, whom I call 'Dude'.

Once, when we are eating at a restaurant with some extra friends, we popped a topic on races. Suddenly, Dude got angry and I was telling him this,

Me: Dude. You are angry because you are a.....mmm......mmm......... What the hell are you?

It is really hard to be racist to a mixed person. Dont ever try it.

To add with the above, I would love to have my children mixed breeds.

Salam 1Malaysia people. And to non-Malaysians, peace be with you.

The Moon Represents My Heart

2009-10-05T03:01:00.000+08:00

You ask me how deep my love is for you,
How much I really love you...

My affection is real.
My love is real.
The moon represents my heart.

You ask me how deep my love is for you,
How much I really love you...

My affection does not waver,
My love will not change.
The moon represents my heart.

Just one soft kiss
is enough to move my heart.
A period of time when our affection was deep,
Until now makes me miss you.

You ask me how deep my love is for you,
How much I really love you

Go and think about it.
Go and have a look,
The moon represents my heart.

Life is Unfair and Yet It Is Beautiful

2009-09-21T01:57:00.000+08:00

Life is not so fair.... Once again life is revealing it's truth.

Comfort is many people's dream. Many of us wanted comfort living. Me too not so different. But again my employee's words always have come to my mind and reminding me why I shouldn't look for comfort for now.

His words are, "Never say that you are comfortable with the current job. You shouldn't be."
And, "Ordinary people, extra-ordinary performance."
He has many more, but these are more suitable for my sharings.

I feel comfortable if I don't work. Better if not waking up early every morning, but discipline mould a person to be a survivor.

I feel comfortable if I just do my job, without being curious and learning new things, but learning leads me to broader pool of knowledge.

I feel comfortable if I never ask questions and make myself look like an idiot, but by asking questions I teach myself more than the person who don't.

I feel comfortable if I reject to take lead on some jobs, but by being a project runner, I sharpen my project handling skill and at the same time I am becoming a trustworthy person to my employees.

I feel comfortable if I never make myself busy serving in church's choir, youth ministry both parish and diocese level, being active in Bahasa Malaysia Apostolate (KUBM), and also allocate some time to visit my friends in Nilai, but I have some knowledge and talents that are worthful if I share them.

I feel comfortable if I never wanted to start a relationship, just being her friend, and stay single since being in relationship with her could be very challenging in many angles, but I love her and challenges occur at any relationship.

When I look at the opposite site of comfort, burdens are waiting there. If I stay at comfort zone, I would be forever an ordinary person. But beyond burdens, comfort is waiting. That comfort is more precious because it is earned. I wanted to earn my comfort and therefore I could happily say that life is unfair and yet it is beautiful.

Declare beauty again

Good Hearts Fixing Life Partner

2009-09-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

In a few years, I would be 30yr...Usually, at my age, many Indian guys would already got married or planning to get married soon with ready life partners. It is not so different in my life too, but the thing is, people around me are more excited to see me getting married soon than me.

Within my family, my aunties would like to look for me a nice Indian girl. When they told my parents infront of me of their intention, my mom just smiled and said, "When the time comes, he will get married".
I could read my mom's mind. She wished I could be a priest rather than getting married but I could see that there are some changes in her heart recently. Unlike my mom, my father's side would like to see me getting married to an Indian, and if possible, a girl from India.

Since I am serving for Bahasa Malaysia Eucharistic Celebration in church, there are people with different opinions. My church has a good number of Ibans. I serve with them and I do activities with them too. And there were sometimes where they asked me that I would like to marry an Ibanese. Moreover, sometimes I hangout at my "kakak angkat" 's residence. She is an Iban, but her husband is a Bidayuh. Amy, her sister-in-law, who is my age stays there too. Amy and I are good friends. We are like a tag-team in church's activities. I could rely on her on administration stuffs and she relies on me on getting things work. Together, we make a great working team. But people misunderstood our relationship and even wanted me to propose her. Haiz... "Babi sama babi mah. Sure bisa kerja bersama." We were born in 1983, the year of pig.

Nevertheless, there are a small community of Kadazans in my church who are great singers. My sweetheart, Phoebe Ng, is a Kadazan too, but she is more Chinese than Kadazan. Mom Chinese/Kadazan-Dusun. Father is a Chinese. There were at some occasion that they would like to see me getting married to a Sabahan, but definitely not Phoebe Ng. She is 21yr different.

Lately, I was thinking about these. Why these things happening? And I could come up with only one answer. It is because of the God's blessing. He has blessed me with a gift to blend with any community regardless race, age, and religion. I thank my Lord for this gift and I pray that He will continue to bless me with this gift.

Last but not least, I would like to marry only my love. I wish this is possible.

How I see marriage

2009-09-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

Recently, somebody argued with me that it is okay to leave a man that could not provide wealth, does not have a good education background and the capability to earn a lot of money. She was arguing with me unrealizing that I was actually looking at relationship on another perpective and not opposing her thought.

When a girl chooses her man based on his wealth, education, and capability to earn, she is making a choice. This is not from love, but I wouldn't deny that there are successful marriages born from this choice. Marrying the man whom a girl or a woman has loved, doesn't guarantee a successful marriage too.

Marriage is a risk. If you are looking at a bussiness perspective, it is like an investment in shares. If in construction, it is like building a mega structure. Anytime, a small mistake could bring a big disaster.

We take risk marrying a stranger, though he or she is not totally stranger, but he/she is at a certain extend. We take risk making baby/ies. Children change our budget flow. We take risk in buying property for family. We take risk in buying insurance, choosing school and education for children, and so on.

Many of us could agree that marriage is a risk. But when we could say marriage is love and if we realize and could see that love is love, and no other things or whatever could replace 'love', and because love stands by itself without any other word that matches it. What is the better way to describe a marriage?

Marriage is from love. We choose a better man or woman as our partner. But is it out of love? If we love the person we choose, then there is no wrong in choosing. But if couldn't love the person we choose, then make sacrifices to sustain the marriage.

Quarrel for Quality

2009-08-08T08:22:00.000+08:00

Two days ago, I was talking to my friend about the current happenings. Suddenly, he popped-out a suprise that he would be getting himself registered with his girlfriend soon. I've asked him, "Why not you wait until you could get married instead of getting only legally registered?"
Anyway he is a Hindu. And I could say more than that if he is a Catholic, ...%#@#..

Then he was telling me about how he and his gf always have different opinions on things. He said that they would always start with a quarrel and end up hugging each other.. Hahaha....Each of them has quality of thinking, ideas, leadership and a different point of view that make their relationship maturing everyday. If either of them just goes along with another's opinion, they would produce a bad quality result at the end.

Further to this topic, he was telling me on how he finds that I am sometimes able to give some ideas that are good and unique. I have inherit them for my parents because they always have different opinions. And most of the time, I would see them quarreling to each other to produce a solution.

Then at sudden, my mind was flying beyond present to some possibilities. If I and 'her' always have differences in opinions, beyond quarrel I would probably get a fly-kick on my face and an Aikido slam as a finishing move. And on floor I would lie for an hour or more. Hehe...

Things to be Revived. Maybe

2009-07-14T00:10:00.000+08:00

There are a lot of things that I have not been doing for a long time. These things once were my hobbies, my talents, my wonderful part of my life that I miss very much.

First of all, I miss drawing. Not drawing buidings or construction details, but drawing nature, potrait, a beautiful scene and sketching. The last time I drew, was for 'someone'. I gave her a potrait but even that also I drew after a long break from drawing. I love art and I feel that I should start drawing again.

Second. I wanted to start playing Chinese Chess with somebody. I miss playing it.

Third. Play keyboard. My uncle has fixed my keyboard but somehow he lost the power supply adapter. I play organ in church but I cant play secular songs there.

Fourth. It has been a while that I've composed hymns. The last time I composed was in last year for the Kuala Lumpur Archdiocese Bahasa Malaysia Choir competition, entitled 'Persembahan Hasil Bumi', which was sung in four voices by Our Lady of Guadalupe, Puchong.

I am Not Good as a Friend

2009-07-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

When I was in Form Six, I was one of the leaders that lead the most of Form Sixers. I was then the President of Science and Maths Society. All of us were great friends and we did activities together most of the time. And as usual, I have always been the ‘thorn among the roses’. At sometime in the middle of the term, I proposed to joint-venture with the Rotary Club to do fund raise for both clubs and gave this task to a friend. But at the end, she couldn’t do her task, so I took over the project at the last minute though my members were against it, and finished the task. From that day onwards, many of the committee members and members, including the Vice President, have resigned their positions with no confidence vote against me. What hurt me the most is the friendship that I have spoiled. Most of them were not very friendly to me after this incident.

Again, in the college, some friends and I revived the Catholic Students Society (CSS) during the 11th INTIMA term. It was progressively getting bigger though we hardly have music during our gatherings. I met a lot of friends, and three of them became my personal great friends. I see them as the ‘Three Pillars of CSS Foundation’. Many of the members became my good friends, and we sometimes hung out together. But, again I screwed up the whole thing when I told somebody that I like that person. Definitely she freaked out, but I never thought that this could spoil the progressive bond among CSS members. Many of my friends then lost the family being in join CSS, since I was still there on the ‘chair’.

A few days ago, one of my friends opened his thought and commented on my behaviour that he kept for a long time in my guess. Though it was hurting, it was true in the sense of how my friend have been looking at me all this while. Once again, I feel that I should be ashamed on myself for not being a good friend.

Whoever might be right or wrong here but the point is I still hurting some people that I call them as friends. If just …

Kau lah Ilhamku Selamanya

2009-06-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

The first day I saw you,
I fell in love with you.
Oh how beautiful you are,
How beautiful you are.

I wondered what is your name,
I wondered where you are from,
I wondered when would I meet you again,
I wondered would you be my friend.

When we met again, I was very happy,
Oh how wonderful the day was,
I was shy to approach you, yet eager to talk to you,
But, you were the first one to say ‘Hi’ to me.

We became good friends, yet I wished you could be my girl,
But I was pretending that I have no interest on you,
Oh how I wish I could say, “I love you”,
But I was a coward.

One day, I had courage to tell you how I feel,
I had courage to tell you that, “I love you”,
But you politely rejected it,
And I accepted it with a great respect.

Now I know I should let you go,
But I still love you. I know I do,
How I wish if you have said, “Yes” that time,
But, I must respect your choice.

I hope that you will meet someone very special,
I wish that you would accept me as a good friend, at least,
I hope you don’t mind if I still love you.

I remembered the first day I met you,
The day, I fell in love with you,
You are still my inspiration. You are,
Kau lah Ilhamku.

Life is too Beautiful to Regret

2009-06-18T12:33:00.000+08:00

After yesterday, I was thinking whether to tell her that I still like her, or not to tell her. I have told her once but it was not a "Yes" as an answer and moreover it was not a good approach either. This time, I had a thought, "Why not I try it again?". Well. If I could persuade her to say, "Yes", than I would be very happy.

But again, part of me says, "No" to this. I clearly understand that I am unworthy for her. Even if she says, "Yes", I would still agree that I am unworthy for her. She deserves, she definitely deserves a far far far better person than me.

The moments I could see her, talk to her, hear her laughter, be with her and say "Kau Ilhamku" within me, I am and I will treasure them. I am confident that because of my love, my prayer, my good deeds and my sacrifice, God will bless her with good life.

All that I am looking forward from this for myself is that I never regret this, one day. Life is too beautiful to regret whatever I am doing.

Declare Beauty Again

I am 'The Crazy One', Dude

2009-05-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

Every individual has a certain level of leadership of their own as God created humans and He gave us the responsibility to take care of the earth. There is one kind of leadership that always steals my interest. The kind I call, 'the crazy one'.

Getting involved with the youngs since in my college, I see the necessity being crazy, immature (not totally), being a friend to everybody regardless races and dare to embarrass myself. But again, as a young adult, I feel that being serious on somethings is important too. With the mixture of these, both extrovert and introvert characters has been explored, making the leadership 'the crazy one'.

Once, when I was teaching catechism at Our Lady of Fatima, Brickfields, all teachers went to a refresment camp. At the camp, we did a session where we sticked a blank paper at our back and went around getting comments about ourselves from each and everyone. After it had done, I read through the comments for me. One wrote that I am a quiet, shy and an unsocial type since the person had always seen me sitting quietly at one corner after mass everyweek. Another wrote that I am very active, friendly and like to disturb and make jokes with others. Finally at the bottom of the paper, one wrote that I am 'orang gila'. It means crazy.

I feel very grateful with the craziness I have. With involvement in church's activities as well as ASAYO of Bahasa Malaysia group, I could not stop being 'the crazy one'. Thanks to my mottos, "Never say old" and "A busy person always got time for extra" that are keeping me to run along with this life without looking at tiredness.

Live Young

Life with Children

2009-05-27T17:45:00.001+08:00

Children can make our world wonderful. With innocents around us, we would feel that we could forget about this world totally and our whole concentration goes to the children. Since young, there were many children that I have raised, played with, taught and so on. You may say that you did that too, but have you ever blogged it? These are some children that became so special to me.

First would be my two sisters, Siru and Thooba. Both are two and four years younger than me. Though sometime we fought, scolded each other, hurt each other and many more, my sisters were, are and will be forever ‘my two eyes’. I had given up a lot for them, especially for the first one.

Second would be my cousin, Kiruba. She is not a near cousin but when we were neighbours, her mother used to leave her in my house every morning before she leaves to work. That was the first and infact the last time too my mom became a Nanny. Kiruba was then a baby of few months but she could recognize me very well compare to my mom and sisters. So somehow, I became her nanny instead of my mom.

After that, Kiruba once again came to my house when she was going to kindergarten. At that time, I was in Form Three. Since I was going to school on morning and come back at evening, I hardly spent time with her. This time, my sisters became close to her. Well. Atleast Siru stopped complaining why I could get closer with some children compare to them.

After some years, another far cousin, Aruna, who was also my neighbour at that time, always dropped by my house. Her grandmother’s house and my house were just 7 metres away. She doesn’t like her grandma, so she would always escape from there and spent the whole morning till evening at my house. Sometimes, she would spent the whole day and mess my house. Haha..

At the same year, my family and me sometimes went to Klang to join the mass celebration at Our Lady of Lourdes church. In Klang, my cousins Theeban, Arievin and Clare, who always asks me to tell some funny stories, are there. Arievin, Theeban and I would sometimes talk about football, football, football and maybe some other stories. Once, I have bought a Professional Chess set for Arievin and Theeban since they like to play chess. For Clare..yet to buy something.

The next would be not one, two or three but more than hundred children. These children were my catechism students, both my class students and non-class students. These kids (now have become teenagers) were great. In enjoyed the moments of their laughter, the time I could spent with them when they were sad, their teasing, their jokes, their intellectual ideas and opinions and many more.

Then, there are three siblings. Children of my ‘kakak angkat’. Meiliyini aka Momok, Meiline aka Meiline, and Alicia aka Cha Cha. These girls always remind me of my idol, Donald Egbert’s daughters, the first one I have forgotten the name, Clarissa, and Claudine. Like the Egberts, I believe they too will be blessed and serve the church and be passionate with what they are doing. This family somehow has become mine too and sometimes I sleep at their house.

And finally, Phoebe Love Angel Ng. I call her ‘Naughty Girl’. She likes to point her butt to me. Haha… and somemore tells me that she ate noodles through that. Hahaha…Really very naughty. Since her mom always brings her along wherever she (the mom) goes, at the time when we have church’s activity meeting, she would ‘conteng’ some pictures on empty pages of my note book. Once she drew a seaside view with some clouds. I asked her, “Where are the birds?” So she drew some birds on the clouds and one in the sea. I asked her again, “Why you did draw that bird in the sea?” You know what she answered? “That bird fly fly fly and died” All I could think is ‘such an intelligent view from a 5 years old’.

These backgrounds do not make me special but, the memories of being with them are special. Siru, Thooba, Kiruba, Aruna, Clare, Theeban, Arievin, the catechism children, Momok, Meiline, Cha Cha, and Phoebe Ng, all these children made and making my life cheerful. I may not get the chances like these again anymore as I am getting older. I know that one day, these memories will be my treasure to keep me going through my tough life in future.

Mind Your Phrases

2009-05-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

Has anybody warned you before, "Watch what you are saying!"

You know English language is maybe fun to learn, but it must be used in speeches or in conversations very carefully because you might get into a big trouble if you never specify your phrases properly.

Example number one:
When you want to praise somebody, please say it properly.
There is a girl called Carmen who has a very good memory. She could hardly forget any things and information. Her friend, Ryan, is really impressed with her capability to remember many things. So, one day he praised her, "You are as good as an elephant."
She gave him a nice punch on his face right after he has said this. Our friend, Ryan is really innocent in this matter. He was praising her, because she could remember things like an elephant do, but unfortunately, Carmen is fat girl.

Example number two:
Caution. People are not used to old English words.
Jude and Judith were passing time in a mall at one evening. Judith hardly knows Jude because she only met him five days before. As they were walking around Jude's friend, Josh, saw them. So Josh went towards them to say, "Hello." As they are enjoy talking and walking around, Jude's handphone rang, so he walked away a bit further from them to answer the call. So Josh took the opportunity to tell some truth about Jude to Judith.
Josh said, "I am really happy to see Jude finally got a girlfriend. I always have hoped that he would get a girlfriend one day because he is a gay boy"
Judith was really freaked out after she heard this, and she quickly walked away from there and Jude never again heard from her.
Our good friend Josh meant, "He is a happy boy." but unfortunately, he innocently thought that Judith would not misunderstand what he meant.

Example number three:
One alphabet could change the whole meaning.
Tony is a famous celebrity in Hollywood. He became so famous because he slimmed down so much in a few months. Now, he looks so charming and many girls are crazy for him. One day, a magazine came to interview him. The interviewer asked Tony, "How did you managed to slim down so much in just a few months?"
Tony answered, "O well. I got aids, actually."
After he has said this, the magazine made a big story out of his answer and made his life miserable. Many more magazines, television stations, paparazzi, and his used to be fans bombarded him with a lot of accusations.
Our good friend Tony was actually having two gym tutors to help him to slim down.

So my friends. Make sure your phrases are right before you say them.
I wonder if I one day marry a happy girl, should I introduce her to my friends as, "She is my gay partner"?

All Guys Are The Same

2009-05-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

Have you ever heard girls complaining, "All guys are the same"?... Is it really true?.. Well if it is, I am proud to be a guy..

Basically, this complain occurs when the girl got frustrated with our attitude or dissapointed with us. These words could evoke the ego of a guy, and he will get angry or maybe broken hearted. Why should you react these ways? Think positively.

"All guys are the same" tells us that we share a lot in common. Undisputedly, most of the guys know what is masturbation, how fun it is when disturbing girls, how not to get serious in a relationship with a girl, how an exposure of our favourite body part of a girl could turn us on, how a sexy chic passing by could attract our attention, and so on..

And at the same time, we also know what is being a gentleman, how to respect the girls, what is serious relationship with a girl, how not to look a girl as a sex symbol only, and so on..

Mostly every guy have these knowledges and attitudes. It is only depends on how extreme a guy is involved in these above matters. When a girl complains, "All guys are the same", she is true and that is what making a guy, a guy. If you could find a guy that is totally different from any other guys, probably, he is cheating on you about his attitude or probably, he is not a guy at all.

If a girl wanted to have a relationship with a guy, she must accept the fact that all guys are the same. Afterall, we shouldn't blame girls of this mindset because they are humans too. Humans have a lot of expectations, but love could cease expectations away. Love is unconditional.

So to all guys. Be happy when a girl says to you, "All guys are the same" because she agrees that you are born with a dick. But please respect their opinion though they could be wrong. Afterall, they are our inspiration.

Money or Love?

2009-05-06T18:52:00.000+08:00

One of my friend who was having his own bussiness went bankrupt because his partner cheated him and ran away with the company's money. This has happened a few months ago, but i do not know until he rang me up. Since that day, I was journeying with his suffering and tried my best to help him find a job, getting him a motorcycle license and ext.

As I was sometimes visiting and had some chat with him, he told me that though he is broken, he felt that he is still lucky to have his girlfriend supporting him to pay his credit card debt as he is having debt on loan to pay. I felt very impressed and immediately I felt a high respect on her.

My friend told me, "Anbu. Do you think that any Chinese girl would do as what she is doing if they are facing the same situation?" He questioned me such way not because he is racist, but because he is an Indian and his girlfriend is a Chinese.

I could only smile and say in my heart, "Why it should be Chinese girl. Shouldn't any girl of any race could do the same thing? I dont see any different between a Chinese and any other race. We are all human race"

My friend is a very hardworking person. I sometimes feel ashamed to compare myself with him. He is good in Public Relation, good in Marketing, good in keeping contacts, good in delivering job in time and as an Indian, he could speak Cantonese fluently. He has every qualities of a Malaysian bussinessman should have except one thing. He easily trust his friends, and that is not a good thing in bussiness. "Don't trust anybody in bussiness." That's what he should have done but it was too late for this time.

I believe that he could come back again. I have never doubted his determination and capability to be successful again, though he is having a very tough time facing what he has lost, now.

Coming back to his girlfriend. Both of them knew and been together for nine, long years. She was then a sales girl with poor English and Bahasa Malaysia command. Her SPM result too was poor plus with her parents did not support her to further study due to they felt ashamed of her. My friend, then was already making good income working as a sales person. He supported her to take up some computer courses, continued with UBS training, and went to do Accountant course and now she is doing LCCI. He even gave some money of RM8000 for her to buy a car. And now, she is living a respectful life as her parents no more feel ashamed of her.

But yesterday, she called up my friend and said that she would like to break-up with him because he is worthless. I am not making up on the word 'worthless' because this is what exactly the word she used. I do not need to further say how my friend felt about this.

Coming back to 'love life'. I don't exactly get the point why money is more important than a man's capability to be successful, for some girls? Is money is the most important thing?

You could say, money is important because of financial support. I would say I agree with you, but how worthful is money compare to the believe of a woman on a man that he could be successful? A man with a vision, a dream, and working towards it, is a successful man to be. He is not a cheap person because he is working towards his success. Falling on the way, is usual, but coming back is the most important.

If you ask me, I would want a girl that together with me on the journey to be a successful person, as I would be walking with her towards her success. I am not talking a success within 2 or 3 years. I am talking about 8 to 10 years time. I dont believe in short time success. It is not very concrete.

I read an article on the Star today. A boyfriend says this to his girlfriend,"I love you even during the days when I dont feel it so much." The girl replied, "What? You mean you dont love me on certain days?!"

The boyfriend says, "No. I do love you very much. There are times when I feel it more, like when we are both happy. feeling in love is important, but what we do and the action we take when we're upset with each other and not in the 'in love' mode is more important."

Sorry to say this but I really look down on girls that think that money is the most important.

The Roses of My Life

2009-05-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

Shariah, Nor Hidayah, Goh Meei Ying, Liew Mei Yao, Arivaligi, Anbu Arasi, Pang Siew Lin, Pang Wen Lhi, Liu Xiu Cong, Sek Lee, Janet Ong, Desi Wilianty Ng, Emelia Satang, Clare Thong Sit May, Nicole Chai, Punitha, Chan Siew Lin, Hui Meian, Jennifer, Josephine and Elaine Lai.

You might be wondering who are these girls. Perharps, you have heard of the saying, "In every man's success, there is a woman". Well. I would not say that i have succeeded in my life, but these girls have played each and every role that gave my life some new destinies, hopes, motivations and dreams.

Arivaligi was my childhood friend. She is very pretty as her name. She was my first girl friend during my primary. Girl friend, not 'girlfriend'.

Nor Hidayah is a beautiful petite Malay girl, who became my girl buddy during my Form Five. From her I learned how not to freak-out when talking with girls during my teenage since I was in all-boys school for a long time.

Liew Mei Yao, was my classmate when i was in Form Six. Her face looks like cat's face. Since we took the same schoolbus, I sometimes drop at her stop and walk with her to my house. We were neighbours. She was my Vice-President for Science and Maths Society who later resigned because of my own incapability to lead. This infact put my self esteem down but I managed to understand and accept my failure after some years.

Pang Wen Lhi is my Gay Girl. She always seems to be happy that I felt I should call her "Gay Girl". From her I learned to smile in every situation and keep the sufferings within. It is hard though.

Liu Xiu Cong was my Maths rival for some semesters when I was at INTI college. She made learning Maths fun again since I like to compete Maths with others. She is my first China friend.

Janet Ong. I would say I had a little crush on her for sometime. Perharps because of her child-like attitude. I admire her leadership capability though her communication capability is just okay. Me and Ken Wayne used to bully her during the 10th INTIMA term.

The following people, I would prefer not to expose their names but they have played a major role in my life. Love life. Though none of them I had a relationship with, love life is a major impact in me.

My first love, a Malay girl during Form Three. I cant really see how she has changed or impacted my life, but somehow because of her I made a decision that relationship with a Malay girl is a no..no.. I think you know why.

And then, during my Form Six, I liked a Chinese girl. I call her 'Morning Glory'. Perharps if some of you notice, my mechanical pencil was always a silver Morningglory brand. I would say that my choice of career changed because of her. I chose to study Quantity Surveying so that I could make some good money and propose her one day. But at the same time, after Form Six, I thought of priesthood too. That is very weird but true.

And I did my tuition at TAR College for STPM resit. I get only 2 principles so I went to resit STPM. There in TAR College, the hottest Chinese chic in my class, infact the whole of STPM classes, had crush on me. Now, I am supprised and can't believe as well as you, but it is a fact. Throughout my studies at TAR, I pretended like I dont notice that she likes me since I was still in like with 'Morning Glory'

At INTI International University College, I liked an Indonesian girl for sometime. This was not because I fell in love with her, but because I felt pity on her and of her emotional downfall. Because I have spent sometime listening to her stories, I was able to give my ears to listen to others' stories, complains, and grumbles. I was not a person that listen to people's heartbroken stories.

And finally, my current love. I already in love with her at first sight. I never believed in 'first sight love' but it has happened on me. But I always knew that I don't deserve her. Sometimes I hope that another girl would enter in my life or perharps my heart stop falling in love anymore. Why? These names are not the full list. This list contains some of my friends, crushes and my loves only. Infact, the list of my crushes is a lot more. Person like me, should not be in a commitment but rather just have a friendship. My father named me Anbuchudar that means, 'Flame of Love'. I am really Flame of Love, perharps. Hehe.

Every girls, friends, crushes, or love, has played some roles in every little things in my life. I had never forgotten them, and I pray and hope for blessings of good life for them.

What Malays?!!

2009-04-18T02:29:00.000+08:00

For sometimes I have been noticing that my church fellows always wrongly describe the East Malaysians. They call them Malays.
Malays?!! What Malays?!!

First of all, we in West Malaysia know three groups of people very well that we think that Malaysia is formed by these three groups of people. Simply said, UMNO, MCA and MIC. Malays, Chinese and Indians. That is why that when people from Sarawak or Sabah come to Peninsula, we call them Malays.

Like we in West, have these three races including Baba Nyonya, Portugese, Sikhs and more, they too have multi races like Bidayuh, Kadazan, Iban, Murud, Dusun, Chinese, Malays, Indians and more.

And like us, they too are Malaysians and NB: Malaysia formed when Sabah, Sarawak and Singapore joined Malaya. Malaya is the Peninsula. Malaya is not Malaysia. I keep on hearing people asking them questions like, "So. How did you find here in Malaysia?" or asking me, "So Anbu. Now you are with the Malay group is it?".

In Sabah and Sarawak, there are Malays and these people are not. We must get it right and know the cultures of Malaysians. Every year, the Government promotes Visit Malaysia campaign but we would rather choose to travel to India, China or ext. Why not we travel around Malaysia and learn others' livings and happenings?

My friends. Next time you meet the East Malaysians, don't call them Malays if they are not. Get to know their background, and you will know them well and learn something extra.

The least I can tell you is, "There are a lot to venture. Get your ass up and explore"

Our God never makes sense

2009-04-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

When we talk about the Wonders of the world, the Pyramids, Taj Mahal, Great Wall, ext, we have the common questions, "How did they built them?". This question arises in our mind because our brain could only accept if something is logic.

Could you believe if a solid looking object that is actually hard and stiff, actually not solid? Could you believe that we with advance technology could not compete with the ancient designs and concepts? Could you believe that God made himself a man, and lived as a man and God at the same time? Could you believe that God suffered like man do though pain is nothing for Him?

Glass is a solid looking object, but infact it is not a solid. It is a liquid made hard that melts in a long period.
I could not answer the second question, but I believe somewhere there could be an answer.

The third one, is about Jesus Christ. God made Himself in a human form and born from a virgin. A divine creature should born from a holy and guarded creature. Humans are sinful creature, but in order to mingle and mix around with us, the Lord has to preserve a woman, pure, holy, innocent and immaculate from every sin. And that is Mary our Mother.

Jesus, is the human form of God Himself, left His mighty power, His authority, His rule over all creations so that He could feel the pain when He falls down, He could suffer the hunger like us, He could work and sweat like we do. My friends. He loves us so much that He wanted meet us personally, and eat together with us but we have rejected Him because His way is not so cool.

We could never agree if the President of USA wipe our shoes. We could never agree if the King is going out with us for a dinner in Mamak stall. We could never believe if a multimillionaire is buying a RM6.00 T-Shirt for his son.

God, like in the story of Prodigal son, made himself so humble. In that story, the second son asked the father to give him his share. According the Jews custom, when a son asking from a father to split the property when the father is still alive, it is like telling the father, "Go and die". Jesus tells us that we like that son, hurt our God but like the father in this story, God forgives us. And again, after the son came back, the father embraces him and celebrated a feast. Will our own father do that for us? Because God loves us so much, He humbled and put down Himself lower than us, therefore He is being judged as not a God. When we say God, Holy Fear must emerge in our hearts. Do you know that He has the authority to destroy us and we have no rights to question Him. But is that what our God is? No..

His authority on us, His love on us, His way of treating, His presence with and in us have never been making sense.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. Alleluia, Alleluia, Alleluia. Blessed Easter everybody

How CSS has changed me

2009-03-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

Before I start with CSS, let me bring you to back to the second week at INTI College Malaysia, Jan 2005.
During that time, every clubs was exhibiting for new recruitment. I was then looking for these two clubs only, the Catholic Society and the Chess Club. Somehow I couldn't find them so I went to the Student Affairs to find out about these two clubs. Mr. Robert, a Kenyan SAO officer greeted me. He told me that these two clubs were dead for a long time and then he asked me, "Will you revive them?"

I was shocked since I was new in INTI and I do not know how to approach this matter. Anyway, this question had been running in my head for sometime and I eventually posted in INTIonline forum about forming the Catholic Society and the Chess Club.
The responds for the Chess Clubs were great, so I focused on reviving the Chess Club. At April 2005, the Chess Club was formed and I became the Vice Chairperson. At the time I took over the Chairperson post from Koh Wei Bing for the next term, I put in effort to make variety of activities. I went closer with relationship with 10th INTIMA and I was able to get a lot of chances and opportunities to make use for the progress of my club. I had a vision, a dream for the club. During the 9th INTIMA Award Presentation and 10th INTIMA Installation event, the Mind Games Club won the Best Indoor Club award and AUP Club won the Best New/Revived Club. So my target is to beat them both for the next term. Finally the Chess Challenge Club, name changed during my term, won the Best Indoor Club beating the Mind Games Club and the Most Progressive Club beating the AUP Club and other new/revived clubs. Though a big achievement for the club, I was not happy with the way I won them. Jing Hua took over the club for the 11th INTIMA term.

During 11th INTIMA I was not involved in any club and the Catholic Society also yet to be revived. During this long break, I managed to humble myself from title glory. Somewhere at the end of 11th INTIMA term, I posted again at INTIonline to form the Catholic Society. The first meeting, Alicia, Leo and Justin Lim responded. From there, I tried again and more people joined to form CSS. For me every first batch of the seniors became my very wonderful friends. I was very happy to meet them every moment in college. Together we have organised events, had fun, shared jokes, ate out, and did more to be a family. But somehow, this bond did not remain forever. I believe I was the cause of this sudden collapse of the CSS. I was already wanted to resign and prepared my resignation letter since the seniors started to leave CSS. There were many days that I cried for my failure to bring them back. I had to make so many sacrifices to secure this club from dying, and more hurting was to see my friends support me by sacrificing their time and studies. But the Lord is so merciful that He blessed the CSS to survive and gave me the courage to continue to lead.

The end of 12th INTIMA term was coming, I and Sarah, the Vice Chairperson, decided to appoint Gerard Wong to take over from me. We knew that Gerard will go through more challenges. We knew he will be suffering but we know that Gerard is the right person to take over the club. Though I do not see it, I know that Gerard probably also not happy with his performance as a Chairperson. This will continue to the next person and so on. The work should not be accomplished so that the journey can be continued.

Somehow, during the 12th INTIMA Award Presentation and 13th INTIMA Installation night, I was very very happy. Although, I did not accomplish my vision for the CSS, I am going to miss the CSS, my friends, the whole INTI and it's life, I was happy to hand over the CSS to Gerard. I felt happy that there was a continuation for CSS. We, the 12th INTIMA Catholic Students Society, are the pioneers the club and the 13th INTIMA Catholic Students Society is successfully growing it. And to make it a firm society, it will take many more years to come. We have created the path, and it was good. The current CSS, you too have continued to make the path longer, and one day everyone of us, the members of INTI-UC CSS, will have a great story to tell of our journey on this path.

Oh Boy..

2009-03-17T19:27:00.000+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
The seriousness of your love:
You have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Tagged:
Nicole
Wendy
Alicia Chan
Maria
Gerard Wong

Show Me the Light

2009-03-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

Everyday I wish you would be by my side...When I am tired..When I am happy...When I am sad..When I walk alone...When I am asleep..I wish I could talk to you during these moments...Embrace you within my arms..
But everytime I wish you were there, I wish that my heart could give you up...I wish that I could stop this hopeless dream...
I know that you are out of my reach...You are an angel...I am unworthy...
Lord..Everytime when I come before you, I would pray for an answer...Why am I trapped with this situation?...What is your plan for me from this?...I am still walking in dark, Lord...Please draw me out from this darkness...

Wo Mei Zi Zi

2009-02-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

This month, I have finished my probation of 3 months and my salary increased. Not so much but still I am happy that some money going to EPF and some extra money for my own investment.
Moreover, Valentine's Day falls on this month too but unfortunetly nobody could enjoy my treat. Being single also gives some positive results especially when you could save some money in the month of February.
Anyway, for those guys who would like to make your girlfriends happy, buy some flowers. Don't ignore my point of view just because I am single. The formula actually works.

Gay guy + Nosegay of flower = Gay girl -------> Gay couple

KUBM

2009-02-03T17:47:00.000+08:00

KUBM stands for Kerasulan Umat Bahasa Malaysia. As in my own English, Bahasa Malaysia Apostalate. This organisation executes activities respectively for the East Malaysian, Indonesians, Natives, and other group that joins the Bahasa Malaysia Catholic group in West Malaysia.
KUBM formed in diocese level (I am from KL Archdiocese) as one big group and some churches in the diocese have their own KUBM components respectively. Kuala Lumpur, Selangor, Pahang, Negeri Sembilan, and Terengganu form KL Archdiocese. My parish, Our Lady of Guadalupe (OLOG) has its own KUBM since 2006.
This year, KUBM of OLOG is hosting Pesta Menuai (Harvest Festival) on 5th July at diocese level. All the above states will be joining together to organise this wonderful event that reflects great cultures of different places. People from all over Malaysia, Indonesia, Singapore and many more will be joining as one community to celebrate this event.
It is a tough task for us but with the blessing of God and the help of my fellow church members, I am not that worried of putting some effort in this event. Community life is beatiful.

Similarity in Attitudes

2009-01-19T18:23:00.001+08:00

Recently I noticed that there are many people around me reminding of my friends far away..
I knew a little girl named Anna who reminds me of Steffi.. She is quiet and very helpful as Steffi...
Then there is a guy younger than me by the name Eric reminding me of my primary school buddy, Agilan. Once upon a time me, Agilan and Steven are good friends until the time separates us.
Then another little girl of my fellow church member's daughter. I do not her name but me and her father are good friends together with other church members. She reminds me of Desi.
And Famela reminding me of Indrayani...
There are some that I couldn't remember at this moment. But the one I won't forget is Phoebe. This girl is just 4 yrs old and very very very much similar in attitude of my good friend, Clare. I could talk a lot about Phoebe because she is the only one of many children that I know in my church who is very very close to me.
But in all that similarity in many children, there are always some differences. That is the greatness of our Lord who creates humans in differences though we are from same places and similarities though we are separated each end of the world.

I Got A New Girlfriend

2009-01-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

Haha... Gotcha... You thought the title was real ah? No lah... Where got girlfriend... But anyway, let's talk about something interesting. Let's talk about being gay..
We see a lot of guys and girls are nowadays being gay everywhere and anywhere.. They are not shy to admit that they are in a gay mood... If you ask me. Why should someone feel shy to admit that he or she is gay.. Me too a gay person.. though sometime not very gay... but that's the ups and downs of my personality...
And so I encourage all of you, to be gay...BE GAY... Dont be shy to admit that you are a gay boy or girl... Be gay for no reason...
And enjoy your gay moment in a group.. It is no fun if you being gay with only your partner...

In my dictionary, gay means happy....And to those 'mangkuk' who took it the other way, read my posting again by replacing the word gay into happy.

Sleepy leads to death... Why?

2008-12-16T22:01:00.001+08:00

When we are sleepy, our brains don't work properly.

If our brains do not work properly, we cant think properly,

When we cant think, we could not do our job efficiently,

Non efficient works leads to bosses getting angry,

They are angry, we dont get salary,

No salary, no food,

No food, go starving,

Starving leads to death.

Why I got tagged?

2008-11-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

Okay. Before I start answering the questions, I would like to note you guys I got tagged by two pretty girls that do not have a better things to do in this world. Infact this is not a real tag thing, but for the sake of these girls beauty and because I am a 'gentleman', I would do these questions. Haiz...

1. The person who last tag you is:
The first is Wendy and the second one is Nicole

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
Wendy is my gayfriend. Yes, She is gay. Extremely gay.
Nicole is my granddaughter because I am an Indian and she is a Chinese. Understood?

3. Your five impression of him/her:
Wendy: Gay Laughter, Gay Cute, Gay Smart, Gay Humorous, Gay Look and Gay Chicken Phobia.
Nicole: Friendly, Easy to bully (by me), Good in bullying (on me), active, and helpful

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Wendy: The first time calling her Gaygirl makes me happy lol.
Nicole: Being there for me though I was actually was looking for another 'person' to show up.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
Wendy: Told me about her chicken phobia story.
Nicole: Asked me to buy her a squash racket.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
Wendy: Cannot eat chicken anymore.... Why???
Nicole: I would probably get an Aikido slam.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be:
Wendy: Learn to eat chicken. Must eat. Eat a lot.
Nicole: (Nothing to say)

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
Wendy: Very sad. She is my Gayfriend. This should not happen.
Nicole: Same case. Cannot happen one. I have no enemies.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
I would probably skip this question since I dont like to have enemies.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Wendy: Go dating with her at Wendy's
Nicole: Find out who is 'he' Hehe

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
Wendy: A leader.
Nicole: A good helper.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:
Very very 'nice' person. 'Dont' disturb others.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
Being immature sometime.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are:
Being immature

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Being myself all the time

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Thank you. Thank you for all the time we had been together. You have mould me into what I am now.
And for you my 'hehe' friend. Thank you for being my friend always.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
Okay. To make this world a better place. I better stop this chain.

Unconditional Love

2008-10-29T14:22:00.000+08:00

For a couple of years, these words always bother me a lot. I was asking myself, what is unconditional love. Though it is simple to explain, it is not very simple to practice, Yes even to our loved one.
Relationship without expecting something could not be an easy going one. Imagine a girl falling in love with a guy without even bothering what kind of future he dreams. Almost every guy wants to make their partner happy but not all fulfilling what they really wanted. Me too, though not in a relationship now, wanted to create a steady future for my loved one.
As a catholic, I could say Jesus as the best person to reflect on this topic. Not only for priests and religious but for any man, Jesus stood and lived as an example who shows unconditional love. He always says that He is the way to salvation, yet He never forces or punishes the people who sins. And above this, dying for our sin is really a great love for a Son of God to do so.
Me. I am just an ordinary human. But I wish I could show more than ordinary love to my loved one.

IQ Test Discrimination LOL

2008-10-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

First, I did the test as a male participant. And I got:

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Then. I did as a female participant. All questions are same.

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Gender discrimination.

The Real Idiot?

2008-09-30T02:11:00.000+08:00

A man speaks frantically into the phone, "My wife is pregnant, and her contractions are only two minutes apart!"

"Is this her first child?" the doctor queries.

"No, you idiot!" the man shouts. "This is her *husband*!"

The moral fo the story: Who is the real idiot, now?

Headache

2008-09-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

Mr. Roger went to consult a doctor in a clinic. As he walks in to the doctor's room..

Mr. Roger: Doctor..Doctor.. My legs are hurting me.. Please help me...

Doctor: Come and sit at the chair, first.

Mr. Roger sat on the chair.

Doctor: So, is it that painful?

Mr. Roger: Yes doctor. I cannot take it. Terrible pain.

Doctor: Then, why not you bring your wife along to assist you since your legs are hurting you?

Mr. Roger: Doctor. I could bear the pain in my legs, but not a headache.

The moral of the story: My future wife is going to kill me after reading this.

Once Upon A Time in INTI Nilai

2008-09-04T17:32:00.000+08:00

I got these pictures from my friend that show how INTI-UC Nilai once looks like when it was first built.

I French-Kissed A Girl

2008-08-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

19th August in history.....
How many of you guys can tell that a girl french-kissed you? Muahaha... You guys are not that very lucky ha?
Well. Actually I was kissed by a dog liao. Ha..ha.. I went to Sherman's where he has two cute dogs, a male and a female. I stayed there overnight because the next day we are going to the Youth Camp.
These dogs need attention. The male is so small and cute. I mean really really cute. I dont really fall for cute stuff but this dog really got my attention. He is so small and very curios type that it tried to attack me somehow though I am so big in size. (Okay..okay.. I know my size cant be compared with humans.)
So, I needed to hold it in my arms in order to keep it calm. Haiz...
Then comes the girl. It is a larger one. She was so excited to see a handsome looking chap, so she tried to make friend with me. Then, when she thought I am okay with more intimate actions, she french-kissed me liao. Not once but again and again and again until my breath smells like hers.
After attending the Youth Camp, I followed back Sherman to go to his house again. And you know what. True love waits. She was again was extremely excited to see her boyfriend is back... And she never let me go. She kissed me again and again and again. And as usual the, male was jealous, though she is not intersted with him. So again I needed to fetch him and put him in my arms to calm him. Haiz.... Lucky that you are cute. Or not...

Okay to verify some facts. Firstly, that was the first time I held dogs and played with them. I usually avoids dogs because not all dogs just bark. Secondly, as I am not a gay, I am also not an animal 'lover'. Thirdly, be a man. Do the right thing.
Okay...What the h*** I am talking? Oh yeah. My post about the Youth Camp is coming. Just waiting for some pictures to be sent to me.

If just life is so simple

2008-08-19T09:55:00.000+08:00

The story of why I went to study in college was never been told to anybody. No one knows the real reason. Even my parents.

After my STPM. Well I did Form Six last time and I was really playful. Getting into Form Six Science stream is not easy, and I wasted the opportunity. Before I entered the school for my Sixth Form studies, I expected the Form Six life would be full of discovering things practically, getting involved in club activities, and leading the lower form students in exploring the wonder of young age, but it was not how I thought it should be. All I saw was students with books, books, and books. Nothing else. Even the teachers were having the same believes. It was all about getting As so that they can enter the Public Universities. I totally hated to study. I tried to enjoy the school environment and forgetting about studies. That was the time, I got interest in doing chemistry lab practice, the bisecting of mice and insects collection for biology subject, the schools events like Canteen Day, Teachers Day and lots more. I also had a relationship with a girl. Buying a bouquet of roses for her birthday, ordered an ice-cream fruit jelly cake, so that we could celebrate the day together. So, all these dreams when 'poof' one day when I realized that STPM is coming. I passes two out of four subjects. The other two I get half-passes.

My father never gave up on me, so sent me to TAR College to attend tuitions for my STPM resit. Frankly telling you, I gave up on studying. I hated studying. Studying should be fun for me but I did took it more serious this time. I wanted to give something good for my father. In the end, I get the same two passes but with greater grades this time.

After that, my life was totally useless. For one year, I was not doing anything. I wanted to work but my the offers I get was not office jobs, but jobs that finishes at 11.30pm or 12.00pm. Sales person jobs, or cashiers. My father against of me doing these type of jobs. As the time passes by, I realize that I should end up doing something worthful so I thought of becoming a priest since I had this thought before I entered the Form Six. Since I wanted to become a priest, I was looking forward to study in a college, getting a degree so that I would become a better candidate as a seminarian.

At the age of 22, I enrolled into INTI College Malaysia now known as INTI International University College. I chose to do Quanitity Surveying since I like Maths and I have experience in doing free-lance architecture drawing. With the determination of getting a diploma and continue doing degree for the sake of priesthood, I stepped into INTI-UC. I told my priest who actually thought that I could just work for some years instead of going to college to enter seminary that I wanted do this to get a clearer picture of my vocation to priesthood. I said that I needed sometime to gain confidence that I could become a great priest. Entering college would be a good opportunity to do so.

As I was doing my studies in INTI, I had a tough time to get along with subjects. My first semester itself I get a fail in Introduction to Computer subject. I really struggled to get into the momentum of excelling in studies. Though I know that my academic performance is not good, my passion towards other activities never went off. I kept on involving in my church activities, reviving chess club in college and making it to progress into a great club, involving myself in other events, and enjoying my youth. I learned about Counter Strike, handphones, latest trends, words, hand-shaking, yamcha, and lots more. Through my subjects I learned that time is money, how to invest in business, how to think about risking for profit, how to speak confidently, what is the value of money, how to be a leader.

After sometime in INTI, I revived the Catholic Society, which then named as Catholic Students Society. I did it as my another task of my vocation. I tried to form it for three times. My third trial was a lucky shot. I met Alicia, Leo, and Justin Lim on the first day of meeting. Then it grows to a good number. Fr. George visited us once. That was the day, I met this girl. That time she was just another club member for me.

As time passes, I got back into the track. I was able to get to understand what I am studying. I was happy with my CSS friends, the committee. They became a part of my family. At the same time, I was interested in her more and more. I was confused. My plan is getting out of track. I was falling in love to a girl and I wanted to believe that all of those feelings was just an attraction towards her attitudes. I was stubborn to admit that I like her. Time goes by and my stubborness gets weaker. I started to spent sometimes with her, going dinner with her and yet I was confused of my true vocation. Am I called to priesthood or marriage? Another problem is, I am 5 years older than her.

There were sometimes where I wanted to say that I like her, but my responsibity towards CSS stopped me. Being in relationship will divide my time for CSS. I would have to spent time for her which I thought I should not for now. I put the family of CSS before me. Moreover she is young. I already passed her age and enjoyed that age. It is time for her to enjoy this young age. Enjoy her youth. I was taking a risk. A risk of losing her to another guy at anytime.

At my last day in INTI, I really cried for not telling her that I like her. My heart was hurting. I always believe that a man that does not tell his feeling to a girl is a coward. At the end, I too became a coward. That night, I was thinking about my action. Am I doing good for her? Is she a part of my vocation test? Or is she my future? Am I dealing with a 'teenage love' at this age?

Why did I stepped into another track? I was going smoothly on a track before I met her. If just life is so simple for me...

My Birthday to come

2008-08-17T12:29:00.001+08:00

I may not have a chance to blog for sometime and may miss my birthday blog. So, I would like o tell you in advance that it is going to be a wonderful day somehow.

Reason No. 1: It falls on Sunday and that means I have a big 'makan' with my fellow church members in waiting. Muahaha.... Yummy.

Reason No 2: That day Malacca felt to Portugese hand in 1511.

Reason No 3: 1891, Thomas Edison patents motion picture camera

Reason No 4: 1932, first transcontinental non-stop flying by a woman Emilia Earhart

Reason No 5: 1991, Ukraine declares independence from USSR

Reason No 6: Pluto was demoted to 'Drawf Planet' in 2006

Reason No 7: 1943, Kenny Baker, the actor as R2D2 in Star Wars was born.

Reason No 8: One of my good friend, Goh Meei Ying. born on the same year as mine too.

Happy Birthday to those born on the same day. And those who read my blog too. Does not matter when is you birthday.

My 12th INTIMA Freeloading Story

2008-08-17T05:06:00.000+08:00

During the 12th INTIMA term, I was the Chairperson of Catholic Students Society. So I had no choice but to stick with these bunch of jokers, Haiz.... Just kidding. These guys are awesome in one way. Frankly, 10th INTIMA is my greatest INTIMA friends, but the 12th became my geng too in someway. Sorry to the 11th INTIMA, except for Jesse and Indi. Indi was also in the 10th.

So talking about the 12th, these guys had their own characters, very much youthlike I would say, and at the same time, trying to lead the students relying on them. This is not really easy.

Starting from the topleft, Ms. Clara, the PRO... she likes to talk, talk, talk, talk, talk.........., but some how can go quiet for sometime. I wonder how?

Then, Mishal the Auditor, he was the Prom King of INTIBall 2008, @&^%$&## I couldn't attend the INTIBall if not.... He is in a band that plays pails, containers, whatever thing that they can bang,..
"Bro. It is called the Stomp"

Next, Justin Joel Thomas the PRO. Very tall isn't he? But I wonder why his girlfriend is short? Guess who? He..he.. Somebody very 'pushy'...

Jason Ng, the PRO. My Gay friend calls him the Gorgeous Guy. I wonder whether it is true? He named me the Freeloader. Very helpful person, and easygoing. Check out about my Gay Friend and Jason Ng from my Blog Buddies.

Aha..My so-called-Second-INTIMA-Girlfriend-that-won't-even-think-about-me-for-a-second. Delia the PRO... She likes Stephen Chow's movie as I do, she likes arts as I do, she likes to talk dirty jokes as I do (I do sometimes), but at the end, sob..sob.., nothing works out le... But one thing I will never forget of hers is the story of 'Banging of Prince on White Horse'.

Then followed by the guy sitting at the end right, Waye Young the Assistant Secretary. He is way too young in the 12th INTIMA. He is the youngest I mean. He was our, CSS's, INTIMA advisor.

Then, the SEXYtary of the 12th, Karampal Singh. Hardly I see him in the office. I wonder how he can go missing most of the time? Well look at his body. Too sexy to be invicible.

Next, Hafiz the Vice President of Acitivities. The next President of Nigeria in line. He has a good personality to be a leader.

Mr. Calvin Chung Kar WAHHH.... the President. He used to be one 'selekeh' guy imported from Ipoh. When he became President, things have changed. His dressing, his approach, his speech, his vision, blah..blah... One thing never changed, his pervertism... Check out his blog from my Blog Buddies.

The Vice President of Administration and Services. I still remember her approach when she was suddenly asked about how she would deal with sexually abused student even before she settle down on her chair during the interview process with Independent Election Committee. She did not even freak out. Man..she was cool. And is cool. I somehow couldn't add her blog. Her's http://joanlynn.blogdrive.com/

Next, the famous blogger of INTI-UC, Wei Ken the Treasurer. His blog and his Intionline postings about the 'Pathetic Online' were famous topics among some students in INTI-UC. You guys should read his blog. His blog gave me the passion to start again my blog after I had terminated it so long ago. Check it out in my Blog Buddies

Next is my so-called-First-INTIMA-Girlfriend-that-won't-even-think-about-me-for-a-second. She is called Pei Yheng. I hope the name spelling is correct but this is how you should call her name. Paying.. Yes she pays a lot of subsidy to clubs since she is the 12th Assistant Treasurer. She could spread her legs straight. I saw that when some of us were playing some sort of card game with liquor.

Well.. the wonderful expriences with them has brought me the INTIMA Merit Award once again. I won it during the 10th INTIMA once. And thanks for the pen guys. You integrated my name and club on it? Wow.

So. Now you know the secret of winning the INTIMA Merit Award. You got to freeload in INTIMA office. Haiz... I am going to miss that office.

12th August 2008

2008-08-13T02:58:00.000+08:00

This is a day that I should not forget. Many people may have many reasons of their unforgetable day, and I have my reasons too.

Reason No 1: At last I have completed my last exam of my course in INTI International University College.

Reason No 2: The day I slept so long after my exam... Sleep ... sleep zzz...... and woke up to see that I have 13 missed calls.

Reason No 3: 12 August means 12 more days of countdown for my birthday..... Waiting for the day in history when Portugese captured Malacca.

Reason No 4: My Parish Priest's birthday. Rev. Fr. Leonard Lexson

Reason No 5: Cleopatra commited suicide at 30BC

Reason No 6: Chicago was founded in 1833

Reason No 7: British declared war againts Austria-Hungary during World War 1 in 1914

Reason No 8: It is an International Youth Day

What a satisfying moment... Oh. I almost forgot... I got to worry about the coming up Youth Camp now... Haiz... work. work.

Installation Nite 2008

2008-08-07T12:41:00.001+08:00

29th July 2008, 12th INTIMA Award Presentation and 13th INTIMA Installation Night. Me, Clare, Josh, Clement, Alicia, Steffi, Sarah, Alvin, Gerard, and Simon took one whole table. Austen sat in another one. We sat very near to the stage. Far from buffet, have to line up for food for long. Sarah.... But anyway, it was a great spot since we were seating near to a projection screen. I saw Justin's teeth very shinny in the slide show.

Josh, Me and Clement. Skin colour same. Guys, we should have smiled like Justin, atleast could see our teeth.

This is too bright. Somemore we are smilling. I look drunken.

Why I look so happy? Actually I was happy that day. Too happy. Josh knows why.

The ladies. Clare, Steffi and Alicia. Where is Sarah?

Gerard, Clement, Alvin, Me, Simon,Sarah is with guys? !!, Austen and Josh

These are my dates. Just kidding. Cannot afford.

Clare was very beautiful that night. I couldn't take my eyes of her....

Like 'Penang' cut into two pieces by a left-handed chef. They are not a couple. Just friends.

Last but not the least,

MACHAs with ATTITUDE

End Up in Josh Place

2008-08-07T12:16:00.000+08:00

A few weeks ago, don't know when exactly, I and Steffi went to Josh place. We meet up with Colin.

Josh invited us to his church, a Methodist church in Seremban. He said that a Korean band is coming down at his church. So I went there to find out how is the way that Methodist celebrate their service. I expected a service actually since it was Saturday night. In our practice as a Catholic in Malaysia, we have sunset mass on Saturday evening. Anyway, there was not any service held.

The Korean band, sang almost every hymns in English. Their spoken English is terrible yet when they sing a English song, it was marvellous. Colin had an eye on one of the girl singer. She is pretty actually. No doubt in it.

I love the way the pianist and the basist played. For me, they were the great on the night. All of their hymns are really touching that everyone of the congregation, adult and young, joined to sing with them. Me too.

It was really a good night. Thanks Josh.

Me, with the funny face, Josh, and Steffi.

My 10th INTIMA Freeloading story

2008-07-17T01:53:00.000+08:00

This is a picture of 10th INTIMA and two jokers 'sibuk' wanted to be in. Who are these two jokers? I will tell you at the end.
First we start from those who are standing at the last row, from your (viewer) left. If you do not know which is your left, it is the hand that is very near to the 'esc' button. You got it?
Ok. The first person is the Assistant Secretary, Pearl. She was an INTIMA President of INTI College Sarawak, but when transferred here, she could not make it to run for presidency here. But she came here and influenced us to take picture with Sarawak style post. (Not shown in this pic).
Next to her, Sonam the Sexytary. But I feel that Pearl is sexier than her. She is from India. Did an AUP and flew to USA to find a nice Indian boy.
Next, Indi the Treasurer. He was all time government staff role player. Never fail to take things cool and his 'Dont worry. Relax' motto really worked for him. The next term he ran for the Vice President of Activities post.
Edo, the Assistant Treasurer. The adorable, cute and pinchable, angry also face look like smiling type. Well, that is what some of the girls have said. He is a very good friend and helpful.
Aha.. the baby of 10th INTIMA, Janet 'Jackson' Ong. She was an Auditor. One great thing she did was organizing INTIBall 2006 and made me to prepare her speech. Haiz... And that INTIBall was the most successful one ever in my INTI life.
My joking, bullshitting, creating a wonderful-bullshit-story-without-laughing partner. Ken Wayne, the Auditor. We always could come up with some not making sense stuffs just to disturb Janet. I think that we should start our own stage comedy performance.
Next to Ken is Stephen the PROO. Came all the way from Vietnam just to seduce Malaysian girls, but it has never worked out. Muahaha.... His motto is 'You are the best. I am the rest.'
Stephen is pointing to is Brian, the other PROO. Law student. Never talk nonsense to him though he dont mind listening to them.
Before going to the people in the center row, we take a look at this guy. He is from China and his name is Raymond ah the another PROO. The one who is in the front row at the end left. His favourite word is OMG.
Now jumping to the center row, the first lady or also can be called the FirstLady, Vera from Kenya. She is like my adopted sister. She was the Vice President of Administration and Services.
The guy in the middle is no ordinary person. A great leader. A great personality. Just one word, the Great. Ang the Great, the President of 10th INTIMA. I have never seen such a President like him in my entire life in INTI-UC till the 12th INTIMA. My bro.
Next is Bob. The another real life government staff. Like Indi, he never fail to take his own sweet time for a tea time.

Now. We will be reading about these two jokers.
The first one is me. INTIMA freeloader. I freeload until I got merit award for that, the INTIMA Merit Award. Ok what.. But, I was always with my 10th term family.
The other joker is not a freeloader actually. Elaine.......The 10th INTIMA Mind Games Club Chairperson. I was then, the 10th INTIMA Chess Challenge Club Chairperson. So basically, both of us were running for the Best Indoor Club award and we were buddies. That was the spirit of the 10th INTIMA Council which I don't see it for the next terms.

Matter of Sexes

2008-07-13T02:01:00.000+08:00

Men and women are different; they are hardwired differently. Most women want men to think like women but reality is, men can't think like women. Most men don't think about women thinking about men.
Then again women get along very well with gay men. Gay men are hardwired as women.
The basic template of a human being is that we all start as girls. Six weeks after conception, the brain's templates change because of male hormones. If you don't get enough male hormones to change the template, the brain remains female. That is biological after all.
A man will form a relationship or marry a woman based on a premise that does not work. He marries her thinking that 'she is a beautiful woman, I love everything about her, and we are having perfect sex life. And that she will never change'.
Because of hormonal structures in a woman's body changes every 10 years or so (especially after she has given birth), she becomes a different person.
So essentially, a woman in her 20s is different when she gets to be in her 30s, and changes again when she is in her 40s and so on.
When it comes to a woman, she will have 10 things that she wants in a perfect guy. Then she finds a guy with three of those things and says that it doesn't matter because 'when he is with me I will change him'.
Reality is, men don't change. A man in his 20s is still the same guy in his 40s, only he is fatter and balder.

I love this conversation

2008-07-08T18:00:00.001+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
dude: I love her more than the air I breath
chick: well im always here for you.
dude: I know.
chick: What's wrong???
dude: I like her so much.
chick: Talk to her.
dude: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
chick: Don't say that. You're amazing.
dude: I just want her to know how I feel.
chick: Then tell her.
dude: She won't like me.
chick: How do you know that?
dude: I can just tell.
chick: Well just tell her.
dude: What should I say?
chick: Tell her how much you like her.
dude: I tell her that daily.
chick: what do you mean?
dude: I'm always with her. I love her.
chick: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me.
dude: Wait. Who do you like?
chick: Oh some boy.
dude: Oh... she won't like me either.
chick: She does.
dude: How do you know?
chick: Because, who wouldn't like you?
dude: You.
chick: You're wrong, I love you.
dude: I love you too.
chick: So are you going to talk to her?
dude: I just did.

He thought of us above all

2008-06-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

Above all powers
Above all kings
Above all nature
And all created things
Above all wisdom
And all the ways of man
You were here
Before the world began

Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders
The world has ever known
Above all wealth
And treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure
What You're worth

Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like the rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

Wahh.......

2008-06-29T01:21:00.000+08:00

This was the result from my Seven Sins test. I am a real sloth.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	High
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	Medium

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

My favourite Bahasa Church hymn. I play it in C

2008-06-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

G Bm Em
SATU HAL YANG KURINDU
C Bm Am D
BERDIAM DI DALAM RUMAH-MU
G Bm Em
SATU HAL YANG KUPINTA
C A D
MENIKMATI BAIT-MU TUHAN
G Em Am D
LEBIH BAIK SATU HARI DI PELATARAN-MU
Am D C G D
DARI PADA S'RIBU HARI DI TEMPAT LAIN
G Em
MEMUJIMU MENYEMBAHMU
C Cm
KAU ALLAH YANG HIDUP
G Em Am D G
DAN MENIKMATI S'MUA KEMURAHAN-MU

Lonely Snail (CSS)

2008-06-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time the snail was lonely,
It had nobody.
All of its own.

The journey made slowly,
Though it was late, it is already on track,
Little by little move, every steps taken forward,
One by one success on the way achieved.

But some of them out of reach,
It is very hurting and the snail must let it go,
Those things must be let to be succeded by someone else,
Now the snail is lonely again

My MainLand Friend

2008-06-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

I met her in INTI International University College. Both of us were doing the same course. The first time I met her, her spoken English is very poor. So I thought it is gonna be tough for her to cope up the study. But mAn... She was fantastic... 'A' student..

Her written English can be equal to Band 6 MUET candidates. When we are in class, I would to sit near her. We sometime talk if it is tutorial time. I needed to talk slowly in order to make sure that she gets my words.

After some months, she picked up her spoken English very well. She could speak faster. She could make a sentence with bombastic words.

I am still keeping her sms that says

Eyes: To look at you

Ears: To hear you

Mind: To remember you

Heart: To miss you

and

Legs: To kick you!

Huh... I miss you a lot Xiu Cong... Hope that I could see you again one day

My CSS mates

2008-06-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

The Catholic Students Society was revived in INTI-UC in the year 2007. I could not have led it as a chairperson without my helpful clubmates who later became my good friends. I learned a lot of good things from them, improved my language, eating out with them, doing gathering with lotz of games, decorating some notice boards especially during exhibition week. Wow, great time with them. Now, I'm going to miss them a lot.

Firstly, Sarah. My pushy 'Vice Chairperson'. When I got to know her, I felt that she is a bit pushy type. Infact she is. I told her after the election that I am really grateful to have her as my vice because I needed some push since I am lazy sometime. Indeed, most of the time, I was lazy or lost and she will demand me to make decisions. Phew..

Next is my 'Sexytary', Alicia. She is a marvelous Secretary indeed where her works are neat and professional and she is studying Electrical Engineering. And never underestimate of her capability in giving brilliant ideas. She only has been as our secretary for two semesters. She is one of us that I have special place in our friendship.

My another 'cute' secretary, Chindy. Very cute but also matured. Does not easily laugh to cheap jokes. And mostly my jokes are cheap type. Very dedicated in her work too. Sometimes I feel that I should have given her more opportunities to do something for our society. Then my 'Chubby' Assistant Secretary. This girl really suprised me when I am back to college on Jan 2008 when I saw her slimmed down a lot. I mean a loooot. But her lazy attitude never slimmed. Haiz...

Now my Treasurer 'boy', Leo. He can break dance. Keeping our money very save and most of the time missing in action. But his attendance still not bad. Very helpful though. Another one that I have a special place in our friendship.

Then my 'Arsenal fan' PRO, Indra. We have rival understanding in football. She likes The Gunners and I like the Red Devils. Hail MU!! Give her to do decoration and she will come out with a masterpiece result. Salute you girl. MU is still great. (And she likes Akpakwu.. oops.. I mean Akpakwu's fried rice)

Next is 'Ever charming smile' Akpakwu.PRO. We love his fried rice. He's a great cook. Always call me boss, but I never paid him salary. Never realized that Indra got crush on him, I mean his fried rice. This is Reuben. PRO. Dont play play with him. He can lift you up and slam you down to floor. And he is also a great musician. Not only in instrument playing but singing as well. His voice can reach to a very high key that amazed me once.
Another PRO. 'YAMAN' Clement. Our DJ. Good in communication skills. Has a capability to be a good leader. Family of Msgr. James Gnanapragasam of KL Archdiocese. Maybe he is a next priest in line.

Colin Lim, General Committee. A great person. Very helpful and he can suggest some good chinese food for you if you don't know how to read mandarin menu.

General Committee, 'He..he..' Clare. She is my daughter and she is Chinese. Among my CSS mates, I hang around with her the most. Whenever I message her, she will reply me with additional ingredient 'he..he..' One girl that hard to see getting angry. Very hard to make decision for herself. Likes waffle chocolate. And having little body.

But again, never underestimate this one too because she can kick your a**. Black belt in Taekwando and member of Aikido club. Another General Committee. Aditya. Very cool character. Calls me Papa. But he's no son to me. His uncle is a Msgr in Indo but he is lazy to go to church. Great skill with comp progs. He even created our CSS friendster profile. Another and the last one that I have a special place in our friendship. This is Desi. Have great voice and sings well. Sister of Chindy and very cheerful.

This Joan. A soprano. Joined INTI-UC's choir and yoga. Maybe that is how she release her tension rather than going around wacking people. I liked her friendster profile when there was 'Beautiful Girl' song. This is Julianne. A very helpful type. Many Nigerians got 'crush' on her. Don't know how to say 'no' in many situations. Girl.. Nevermind. This is Steffi. A model of CSS. Very pretty one isn't she?

My Gay Friend

2008-06-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

Do you know that I have a gay friend. Well I am not a gay, neither my friend is. But we are gay buddies.

This is my Gay Friend. Introducing Wendy Pang from INTI International University College. My Gay Wendy, is a very pretty girl for your info and she is short too.
She might want to give a nice punch on my face if she read this.
One thing that has suprised me about her is that she is totally a vegetarian because she is a chicken-cutting-cannot-see-one-phobia patient.

I always see she is happy anytime. She never failed to laugh or smile. Mostly laugh. That is why I call her my gay friend. Gay means happy.

What you guys thought hah? Gay for butt-buddies?

Promoting: http://wendypang1988.blogspot.com/

Free Hugs!! Anyone?

2008-06-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

I saw this picture in my dear INTIMA's computer. This picture was taken during Council Jamboree Nite organized by 12th INTIMA.

Wondering who is this handsome guy? This is me. Am I not handsome? What? Don't you want to stay alive?

Anyway, after realising that the world is moving fast, I mean the lifestyle of homosapiens, I have decided to find a solution to release the tension from this lifestyle. FREE HUGS.

This may sound like copycat. Well, I dunno that someone had copyrighted free hugs. You know anyone who did? Introduce him/her to me. I would like to wack that person.

Another thing. If you could see the people behind me in this picture, they are there posting their favourite posts in order to support my FREE HUGS campaign.

So, Free Hugs!! Anyone?