As the new year is here, I was wondering whether i would be the same person as i am now.
Since young, my life was very much complex that i hardly had a choice to choose freely. Choosing an option from anything and choosing an option from provided things are different.
When i was young, my life was full of pampering though i do get beaten by my mom. I was always the kid that was seen as the bookworm, or the smart freak in my neighbourhood and among my relatives. Secondly, since my mom's side were all Catholics, i was a figure of wanna-be-priest to them. For that purpose, i always try to watch-out my behaviour whenever i was with them. The best part was, i always get extra cash (ang-pows) compare to my sisters.
During these days, my performance as a leader is zero. I had never tried to take a lead but had been always with books and play-in-school-only activities, a simple say, very much introvert. This was how i was growing up from child to a young teenager, until somebody put a mirror in front of me.
Once when i was in Form Two going Form Three, my cousin who is much older than me, told my mom in front of me that i could obtain many more certificates and praises in academics but, i still would end up as untalented and unsuitable to perform in profession. That was my turning point in my life.
Form Three entering a new school gave me a break through from my introvert life-style. I was entering from all-boys La Sallian to a mixed-gender school for the first time. Frankly, my break through all started with some blushings. Meeting girls who are totally strangers and talking to them, was never on my mind, but there was my training base of my disturbing-girls attitude. Even till today, i have this attitude and it seems not stopping for the moment.
From introvert to extrovert. From being an audience to a person that takes the lead and perform. Making mistakes in leadership and learning to do them better and better. A lot of changes have happened in my life, and i enjoy them.
But yet, i had never changed that much. There were times that i like to not to meet people, being crazy, and taking lead. There were times that i enjoyed being lonely, doing something with full of seriousness and being led by others. Because of i could balance my extrovert and introvert attitudes, i was able to learn and teach basic theology, scripture, biology, history, being passionate about sacred music, and much more. And at the same time, behaving like a crazy person, being a risk taker and being bold to open a topic in table talk and much more.
Changes happen in our life. This year, we could be facing some new agendas in our life. Whatever they are, Live Life Abundantly.
Happy New Year, Friends.....
