Every individual has a certain level of leadership of their own as God created humans and He gave us the responsibility to take care of the earth. There is one kind of leadership that always steals my interest. The kind I call, 'the crazy one'.
Getting involved with the youngs since in my college, I see the necessity being crazy, immature (not totally), being a friend to everybody regardless races and dare to embarrass myself. But again, as a young adult, I feel that being serious on somethings is important too. With the mixture of these, both extrovert and introvert characters has been explored, making the leadership 'the crazy one'.
Once, when I was teaching catechism at Our Lady of Fatima, Brickfields, all teachers went to a refresment camp. At the camp, we did a session where we sticked a blank paper at our back and went around getting comments about ourselves from each and everyone. After it had done, I read through the comments for me. One wrote that I am a quiet, shy and an unsocial type since the person had always seen me sitting quietly at one corner after mass everyweek. Another wrote that I am very active, friendly and like to disturb and make jokes with others. Finally at the bottom of the paper, one wrote that I am 'orang gila'. It means crazy.
I feel very grateful with the craziness I have. With involvement in church's activities as well as ASAYO of Bahasa Malaysia group, I could not stop being 'the crazy one'. Thanks to my mottos, "Never say old" and "A busy person always got time for extra" that are keeping me to run along with this life without looking at tiredness.
Live Young
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Life with Children
Children can make our world wonderful. With innocents around us, we would feel that we could forget about this world totally and our whole concentration goes to the children. Since young, there were many children that I have raised, played with, taught and so on. You may say that you did that too, but have you ever blogged it? These are some children that became so special to me.
First would be my two sisters, Siru and Thooba. Both are two and four years younger than me. Though sometime we fought, scolded each other, hurt each other and many more, my sisters were, are and will be forever ‘my two eyes’. I had given up a lot for them, especially for the first one.
Second would be my cousin, Kiruba. She is not a near cousin but when we were neighbours, her mother used to leave her in my house every morning before she leaves to work. That was the first and infact the last time too my mom became a Nanny. Kiruba was then a baby of few months but she could recognize me very well compare to my mom and sisters. So somehow, I became her nanny instead of my mom.
After that, Kiruba once again came to my house when she was going to kindergarten. At that time, I was in Form Three. Since I was going to school on morning and come back at evening, I hardly spent time with her. This time, my sisters became close to her. Well. Atleast Siru stopped complaining why I could get closer with some children compare to them.
After some years, another far cousin, Aruna, who was also my neighbour at that time, always dropped by my house. Her grandmother’s house and my house were just 7 metres away. She doesn’t like her grandma, so she would always escape from there and spent the whole morning till evening at my house. Sometimes, she would spent the whole day and mess my house. Haha..
At the same year, my family and me sometimes went to Klang to join the mass celebration at Our Lady of Lourdes church. In Klang, my cousins Theeban, Arievin and Clare, who always asks me to tell some funny stories, are there. Arievin, Theeban and I would sometimes talk about football, football, football and maybe some other stories. Once, I have bought a Professional Chess set for Arievin and Theeban since they like to play chess. For Clare..yet to buy something.
The next would be not one, two or three but more than hundred children. These children were my catechism students, both my class students and non-class students. These kids (now have become teenagers) were great. In enjoyed the moments of their laughter, the time I could spent with them when they were sad, their teasing, their jokes, their intellectual ideas and opinions and many more.
Then, there are three siblings. Children of my ‘kakak angkat’. Meiliyini aka Momok, Meiline aka Meiline, and Alicia aka Cha Cha. These girls always remind me of my idol, Donald Egbert’s daughters, the first one I have forgotten the name, Clarissa, and Claudine. Like the Egberts, I believe they too will be blessed and serve the church and be passionate with what they are doing. This family somehow has become mine too and sometimes I sleep at their house.
And finally, Phoebe Love Angel Ng. I call her ‘Naughty Girl’. She likes to point her butt to me. Haha… and somemore tells me that she ate noodles through that. Hahaha…Really very naughty. Since her mom always brings her along wherever she (the mom) goes, at the time when we have church’s activity meeting, she would ‘conteng’ some pictures on empty pages of my note book. Once she drew a seaside view with some clouds. I asked her, “Where are the birds?” So she drew some birds on the clouds and one in the sea. I asked her again, “Why you did draw that bird in the sea?” You know what she answered? “That bird fly fly fly and died” All I could think is ‘such an intelligent view from a 5 years old’.
These backgrounds do not make me special but, the memories of being with them are special. Siru, Thooba, Kiruba, Aruna, Clare, Theeban, Arievin, the catechism children, Momok, Meiline, Cha Cha, and Phoebe Ng, all these children made and making my life cheerful. I may not get the chances like these again anymore as I am getting older. I know that one day, these memories will be my treasure to keep me going through my tough life in future.
First would be my two sisters, Siru and Thooba. Both are two and four years younger than me. Though sometime we fought, scolded each other, hurt each other and many more, my sisters were, are and will be forever ‘my two eyes’. I had given up a lot for them, especially for the first one.
Second would be my cousin, Kiruba. She is not a near cousin but when we were neighbours, her mother used to leave her in my house every morning before she leaves to work. That was the first and infact the last time too my mom became a Nanny. Kiruba was then a baby of few months but she could recognize me very well compare to my mom and sisters. So somehow, I became her nanny instead of my mom.
After that, Kiruba once again came to my house when she was going to kindergarten. At that time, I was in Form Three. Since I was going to school on morning and come back at evening, I hardly spent time with her. This time, my sisters became close to her. Well. Atleast Siru stopped complaining why I could get closer with some children compare to them.
After some years, another far cousin, Aruna, who was also my neighbour at that time, always dropped by my house. Her grandmother’s house and my house were just 7 metres away. She doesn’t like her grandma, so she would always escape from there and spent the whole morning till evening at my house. Sometimes, she would spent the whole day and mess my house. Haha..
At the same year, my family and me sometimes went to Klang to join the mass celebration at Our Lady of Lourdes church. In Klang, my cousins Theeban, Arievin and Clare, who always asks me to tell some funny stories, are there. Arievin, Theeban and I would sometimes talk about football, football, football and maybe some other stories. Once, I have bought a Professional Chess set for Arievin and Theeban since they like to play chess. For Clare..yet to buy something.
The next would be not one, two or three but more than hundred children. These children were my catechism students, both my class students and non-class students. These kids (now have become teenagers) were great. In enjoyed the moments of their laughter, the time I could spent with them when they were sad, their teasing, their jokes, their intellectual ideas and opinions and many more.
Then, there are three siblings. Children of my ‘kakak angkat’. Meiliyini aka Momok, Meiline aka Meiline, and Alicia aka Cha Cha. These girls always remind me of my idol, Donald Egbert’s daughters, the first one I have forgotten the name, Clarissa, and Claudine. Like the Egberts, I believe they too will be blessed and serve the church and be passionate with what they are doing. This family somehow has become mine too and sometimes I sleep at their house.
And finally, Phoebe Love Angel Ng. I call her ‘Naughty Girl’. She likes to point her butt to me. Haha… and somemore tells me that she ate noodles through that. Hahaha…Really very naughty. Since her mom always brings her along wherever she (the mom) goes, at the time when we have church’s activity meeting, she would ‘conteng’ some pictures on empty pages of my note book. Once she drew a seaside view with some clouds. I asked her, “Where are the birds?” So she drew some birds on the clouds and one in the sea. I asked her again, “Why you did draw that bird in the sea?” You know what she answered? “That bird fly fly fly and died” All I could think is ‘such an intelligent view from a 5 years old’.
These backgrounds do not make me special but, the memories of being with them are special. Siru, Thooba, Kiruba, Aruna, Clare, Theeban, Arievin, the catechism children, Momok, Meiline, Cha Cha, and Phoebe Ng, all these children made and making my life cheerful. I may not get the chances like these again anymore as I am getting older. I know that one day, these memories will be my treasure to keep me going through my tough life in future.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Mind Your Phrases
Has anybody warned you before, "Watch what you are saying!"
You know English language is maybe fun to learn, but it must be used in speeches or in conversations very carefully because you might get into a big trouble if you never specify your phrases properly.
Example number one:
When you want to praise somebody, please say it properly.
There is a girl called Carmen who has a very good memory. She could hardly forget any things and information. Her friend, Ryan, is really impressed with her capability to remember many things. So, one day he praised her, "You are as good as an elephant."
She gave him a nice punch on his face right after he has said this. Our friend, Ryan is really innocent in this matter. He was praising her, because she could remember things like an elephant do, but unfortunately, Carmen is fat girl.
Example number two:
Caution. People are not used to old English words.
Jude and Judith were passing time in a mall at one evening. Judith hardly knows Jude because she only met him five days before. As they were walking around Jude's friend, Josh, saw them. So Josh went towards them to say, "Hello." As they are enjoy talking and walking around, Jude's handphone rang, so he walked away a bit further from them to answer the call. So Josh took the opportunity to tell some truth about Jude to Judith.
Josh said, "I am really happy to see Jude finally got a girlfriend. I always have hoped that he would get a girlfriend one day because he is a gay boy"
Judith was really freaked out after she heard this, and she quickly walked away from there and Jude never again heard from her.
Our good friend Josh meant, "He is a happy boy." but unfortunately, he innocently thought that Judith would not misunderstand what he meant.
Example number three:
One alphabet could change the whole meaning.
Tony is a famous celebrity in Hollywood. He became so famous because he slimmed down so much in a few months. Now, he looks so charming and many girls are crazy for him. One day, a magazine came to interview him. The interviewer asked Tony, "How did you managed to slim down so much in just a few months?"
Tony answered, "O well. I got aids, actually."
After he has said this, the magazine made a big story out of his answer and made his life miserable. Many more magazines, television stations, paparazzi, and his used to be fans bombarded him with a lot of accusations.
Our good friend Tony was actually having two gym tutors to help him to slim down.
So my friends. Make sure your phrases are right before you say them.
I wonder if I one day marry a happy girl, should I introduce her to my friends as, "She is my gay partner"?
You know English language is maybe fun to learn, but it must be used in speeches or in conversations very carefully because you might get into a big trouble if you never specify your phrases properly.
Example number one:
When you want to praise somebody, please say it properly.
There is a girl called Carmen who has a very good memory. She could hardly forget any things and information. Her friend, Ryan, is really impressed with her capability to remember many things. So, one day he praised her, "You are as good as an elephant."
She gave him a nice punch on his face right after he has said this. Our friend, Ryan is really innocent in this matter. He was praising her, because she could remember things like an elephant do, but unfortunately, Carmen is fat girl.
Example number two:
Caution. People are not used to old English words.
Jude and Judith were passing time in a mall at one evening. Judith hardly knows Jude because she only met him five days before. As they were walking around Jude's friend, Josh, saw them. So Josh went towards them to say, "Hello." As they are enjoy talking and walking around, Jude's handphone rang, so he walked away a bit further from them to answer the call. So Josh took the opportunity to tell some truth about Jude to Judith.
Josh said, "I am really happy to see Jude finally got a girlfriend. I always have hoped that he would get a girlfriend one day because he is a gay boy"
Judith was really freaked out after she heard this, and she quickly walked away from there and Jude never again heard from her.
Our good friend Josh meant, "He is a happy boy." but unfortunately, he innocently thought that Judith would not misunderstand what he meant.
Example number three:
One alphabet could change the whole meaning.
Tony is a famous celebrity in Hollywood. He became so famous because he slimmed down so much in a few months. Now, he looks so charming and many girls are crazy for him. One day, a magazine came to interview him. The interviewer asked Tony, "How did you managed to slim down so much in just a few months?"
Tony answered, "O well. I got aids, actually."
After he has said this, the magazine made a big story out of his answer and made his life miserable. Many more magazines, television stations, paparazzi, and his used to be fans bombarded him with a lot of accusations.
Our good friend Tony was actually having two gym tutors to help him to slim down.
So my friends. Make sure your phrases are right before you say them.
I wonder if I one day marry a happy girl, should I introduce her to my friends as, "She is my gay partner"?
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
All Guys Are The Same
Have you ever heard girls complaining, "All guys are the same"?... Is it really true?.. Well if it is, I am proud to be a guy..
Basically, this complain occurs when the girl got frustrated with our attitude or dissapointed with us. These words could evoke the ego of a guy, and he will get angry or maybe broken hearted. Why should you react these ways? Think positively.
"All guys are the same" tells us that we share a lot in common. Undisputedly, most of the guys know what is masturbation, how fun it is when disturbing girls, how not to get serious in a relationship with a girl, how an exposure of our favourite body part of a girl could turn us on, how a sexy chic passing by could attract our attention, and so on..
And at the same time, we also know what is being a gentleman, how to respect the girls, what is serious relationship with a girl, how not to look a girl as a sex symbol only, and so on..
Mostly every guy have these knowledges and attitudes. It is only depends on how extreme a guy is involved in these above matters. When a girl complains, "All guys are the same", she is true and that is what making a guy, a guy. If you could find a guy that is totally different from any other guys, probably, he is cheating on you about his attitude or probably, he is not a guy at all.
If a girl wanted to have a relationship with a guy, she must accept the fact that all guys are the same. Afterall, we shouldn't blame girls of this mindset because they are humans too. Humans have a lot of expectations, but love could cease expectations away. Love is unconditional.
So to all guys. Be happy when a girl says to you, "All guys are the same" because she agrees that you are born with a dick. But please respect their opinion though they could be wrong. Afterall, they are our inspiration.
Basically, this complain occurs when the girl got frustrated with our attitude or dissapointed with us. These words could evoke the ego of a guy, and he will get angry or maybe broken hearted. Why should you react these ways? Think positively.
"All guys are the same" tells us that we share a lot in common. Undisputedly, most of the guys know what is masturbation, how fun it is when disturbing girls, how not to get serious in a relationship with a girl, how an exposure of our favourite body part of a girl could turn us on, how a sexy chic passing by could attract our attention, and so on..
And at the same time, we also know what is being a gentleman, how to respect the girls, what is serious relationship with a girl, how not to look a girl as a sex symbol only, and so on..
Mostly every guy have these knowledges and attitudes. It is only depends on how extreme a guy is involved in these above matters. When a girl complains, "All guys are the same", she is true and that is what making a guy, a guy. If you could find a guy that is totally different from any other guys, probably, he is cheating on you about his attitude or probably, he is not a guy at all.
If a girl wanted to have a relationship with a guy, she must accept the fact that all guys are the same. Afterall, we shouldn't blame girls of this mindset because they are humans too. Humans have a lot of expectations, but love could cease expectations away. Love is unconditional.
So to all guys. Be happy when a girl says to you, "All guys are the same" because she agrees that you are born with a dick. But please respect their opinion though they could be wrong. Afterall, they are our inspiration.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Money or Love?
One of my friend who was having his own bussiness went bankrupt because his partner cheated him and ran away with the company's money. This has happened a few months ago, but i do not know until he rang me up. Since that day, I was journeying with his suffering and tried my best to help him find a job, getting him a motorcycle license and ext.
As I was sometimes visiting and had some chat with him, he told me that though he is broken, he felt that he is still lucky to have his girlfriend supporting him to pay his credit card debt as he is having debt on loan to pay. I felt very impressed and immediately I felt a high respect on her.
My friend told me, "Anbu. Do you think that any Chinese girl would do as what she is doing if they are facing the same situation?" He questioned me such way not because he is racist, but because he is an Indian and his girlfriend is a Chinese.
I could only smile and say in my heart, "Why it should be Chinese girl. Shouldn't any girl of any race could do the same thing? I dont see any different between a Chinese and any other race. We are all human race"
My friend is a very hardworking person. I sometimes feel ashamed to compare myself with him. He is good in Public Relation, good in Marketing, good in keeping contacts, good in delivering job in time and as an Indian, he could speak Cantonese fluently. He has every qualities of a Malaysian bussinessman should have except one thing. He easily trust his friends, and that is not a good thing in bussiness. "Don't trust anybody in bussiness." That's what he should have done but it was too late for this time.
I believe that he could come back again. I have never doubted his determination and capability to be successful again, though he is having a very tough time facing what he has lost, now.
Coming back to his girlfriend. Both of them knew and been together for nine, long years. She was then a sales girl with poor English and Bahasa Malaysia command. Her SPM result too was poor plus with her parents did not support her to further study due to they felt ashamed of her. My friend, then was already making good income working as a sales person. He supported her to take up some computer courses, continued with UBS training, and went to do Accountant course and now she is doing LCCI. He even gave some money of RM8000 for her to buy a car. And now, she is living a respectful life as her parents no more feel ashamed of her.
But yesterday, she called up my friend and said that she would like to break-up with him because he is worthless. I am not making up on the word 'worthless' because this is what exactly the word she used. I do not need to further say how my friend felt about this.
Coming back to 'love life'. I don't exactly get the point why money is more important than a man's capability to be successful, for some girls? Is money is the most important thing?
You could say, money is important because of financial support. I would say I agree with you, but how worthful is money compare to the believe of a woman on a man that he could be successful? A man with a vision, a dream, and working towards it, is a successful man to be. He is not a cheap person because he is working towards his success. Falling on the way, is usual, but coming back is the most important.
If you ask me, I would want a girl that together with me on the journey to be a successful person, as I would be walking with her towards her success. I am not talking a success within 2 or 3 years. I am talking about 8 to 10 years time. I dont believe in short time success. It is not very concrete.
I read an article on the Star today. A boyfriend says this to his girlfriend,"I love you even during the days when I dont feel it so much." The girl replied, "What? You mean you dont love me on certain days?!"
The boyfriend says, "No. I do love you very much. There are times when I feel it more, like when we are both happy. feeling in love is important, but what we do and the action we take when we're upset with each other and not in the 'in love' mode is more important."
Sorry to say this but I really look down on girls that think that money is the most important.
As I was sometimes visiting and had some chat with him, he told me that though he is broken, he felt that he is still lucky to have his girlfriend supporting him to pay his credit card debt as he is having debt on loan to pay. I felt very impressed and immediately I felt a high respect on her.
My friend told me, "Anbu. Do you think that any Chinese girl would do as what she is doing if they are facing the same situation?" He questioned me such way not because he is racist, but because he is an Indian and his girlfriend is a Chinese.
I could only smile and say in my heart, "Why it should be Chinese girl. Shouldn't any girl of any race could do the same thing? I dont see any different between a Chinese and any other race. We are all human race"
My friend is a very hardworking person. I sometimes feel ashamed to compare myself with him. He is good in Public Relation, good in Marketing, good in keeping contacts, good in delivering job in time and as an Indian, he could speak Cantonese fluently. He has every qualities of a Malaysian bussinessman should have except one thing. He easily trust his friends, and that is not a good thing in bussiness. "Don't trust anybody in bussiness." That's what he should have done but it was too late for this time.
I believe that he could come back again. I have never doubted his determination and capability to be successful again, though he is having a very tough time facing what he has lost, now.
Coming back to his girlfriend. Both of them knew and been together for nine, long years. She was then a sales girl with poor English and Bahasa Malaysia command. Her SPM result too was poor plus with her parents did not support her to further study due to they felt ashamed of her. My friend, then was already making good income working as a sales person. He supported her to take up some computer courses, continued with UBS training, and went to do Accountant course and now she is doing LCCI. He even gave some money of RM8000 for her to buy a car. And now, she is living a respectful life as her parents no more feel ashamed of her.
But yesterday, she called up my friend and said that she would like to break-up with him because he is worthless. I am not making up on the word 'worthless' because this is what exactly the word she used. I do not need to further say how my friend felt about this.
Coming back to 'love life'. I don't exactly get the point why money is more important than a man's capability to be successful, for some girls? Is money is the most important thing?
You could say, money is important because of financial support. I would say I agree with you, but how worthful is money compare to the believe of a woman on a man that he could be successful? A man with a vision, a dream, and working towards it, is a successful man to be. He is not a cheap person because he is working towards his success. Falling on the way, is usual, but coming back is the most important.
If you ask me, I would want a girl that together with me on the journey to be a successful person, as I would be walking with her towards her success. I am not talking a success within 2 or 3 years. I am talking about 8 to 10 years time. I dont believe in short time success. It is not very concrete.
I read an article on the Star today. A boyfriend says this to his girlfriend,"I love you even during the days when I dont feel it so much." The girl replied, "What? You mean you dont love me on certain days?!"
The boyfriend says, "No. I do love you very much. There are times when I feel it more, like when we are both happy. feeling in love is important, but what we do and the action we take when we're upset with each other and not in the 'in love' mode is more important."
Sorry to say this but I really look down on girls that think that money is the most important.
Monday, May 4, 2009
The Roses of My Life
Shariah, Nor Hidayah, Goh Meei Ying, Liew Mei Yao, Arivaligi, Anbu Arasi, Pang Siew Lin, Pang Wen Lhi, Liu Xiu Cong, Sek Lee, Janet Ong, Desi Wilianty Ng, Emelia Satang, Clare Thong Sit May, Nicole Chai, Punitha, Chan Siew Lin, Hui Meian, Jennifer, Josephine and Elaine Lai.
You might be wondering who are these girls. Perharps, you have heard of the saying, "In every man's success, there is a woman". Well. I would not say that i have succeeded in my life, but these girls have played each and every role that gave my life some new destinies, hopes, motivations and dreams.
Arivaligi was my childhood friend. She is very pretty as her name. She was my first girl friend during my primary. Girl friend, not 'girlfriend'.
Nor Hidayah is a beautiful petite Malay girl, who became my girl buddy during my Form Five. From her I learned how not to freak-out when talking with girls during my teenage since I was in all-boys school for a long time.
Liew Mei Yao, was my classmate when i was in Form Six. Her face looks like cat's face. Since we took the same schoolbus, I sometimes drop at her stop and walk with her to my house. We were neighbours. She was my Vice-President for Science and Maths Society who later resigned because of my own incapability to lead. This infact put my self esteem down but I managed to understand and accept my failure after some years.
Pang Wen Lhi is my Gay Girl. She always seems to be happy that I felt I should call her "Gay Girl". From her I learned to smile in every situation and keep the sufferings within. It is hard though.
Liu Xiu Cong was my Maths rival for some semesters when I was at INTI college. She made learning Maths fun again since I like to compete Maths with others. She is my first China friend.
Janet Ong. I would say I had a little crush on her for sometime. Perharps because of her child-like attitude. I admire her leadership capability though her communication capability is just okay. Me and Ken Wayne used to bully her during the 10th INTIMA term.
The following people, I would prefer not to expose their names but they have played a major role in my life. Love life. Though none of them I had a relationship with, love life is a major impact in me.
My first love, a Malay girl during Form Three. I cant really see how she has changed or impacted my life, but somehow because of her I made a decision that relationship with a Malay girl is a no..no.. I think you know why.
And then, during my Form Six, I liked a Chinese girl. I call her 'Morning Glory'. Perharps if some of you notice, my mechanical pencil was always a silver Morningglory brand. I would say that my choice of career changed because of her. I chose to study Quantity Surveying so that I could make some good money and propose her one day. But at the same time, after Form Six, I thought of priesthood too. That is very weird but true.
And I did my tuition at TAR College for STPM resit. I get only 2 principles so I went to resit STPM. There in TAR College, the hottest Chinese chic in my class, infact the whole of STPM classes, had crush on me. Now, I am supprised and can't believe as well as you, but it is a fact. Throughout my studies at TAR, I pretended like I dont notice that she likes me since I was still in like with 'Morning Glory'
At INTI International University College, I liked an Indonesian girl for sometime. This was not because I fell in love with her, but because I felt pity on her and of her emotional downfall. Because I have spent sometime listening to her stories, I was able to give my ears to listen to others' stories, complains, and grumbles. I was not a person that listen to people's heartbroken stories.
And finally, my current love. I already in love with her at first sight. I never believed in 'first sight love' but it has happened on me. But I always knew that I don't deserve her. Sometimes I hope that another girl would enter in my life or perharps my heart stop falling in love anymore. Why? These names are not the full list. This list contains some of my friends, crushes and my loves only. Infact, the list of my crushes is a lot more. Person like me, should not be in a commitment but rather just have a friendship. My father named me Anbuchudar that means, 'Flame of Love'. I am really Flame of Love, perharps. Hehe.
Every girls, friends, crushes, or love, has played some roles in every little things in my life. I had never forgotten them, and I pray and hope for blessings of good life for them.
You might be wondering who are these girls. Perharps, you have heard of the saying, "In every man's success, there is a woman". Well. I would not say that i have succeeded in my life, but these girls have played each and every role that gave my life some new destinies, hopes, motivations and dreams.
Arivaligi was my childhood friend. She is very pretty as her name. She was my first girl friend during my primary. Girl friend, not 'girlfriend'.
Nor Hidayah is a beautiful petite Malay girl, who became my girl buddy during my Form Five. From her I learned how not to freak-out when talking with girls during my teenage since I was in all-boys school for a long time.
Liew Mei Yao, was my classmate when i was in Form Six. Her face looks like cat's face. Since we took the same schoolbus, I sometimes drop at her stop and walk with her to my house. We were neighbours. She was my Vice-President for Science and Maths Society who later resigned because of my own incapability to lead. This infact put my self esteem down but I managed to understand and accept my failure after some years.
Pang Wen Lhi is my Gay Girl. She always seems to be happy that I felt I should call her "Gay Girl". From her I learned to smile in every situation and keep the sufferings within. It is hard though.
Liu Xiu Cong was my Maths rival for some semesters when I was at INTI college. She made learning Maths fun again since I like to compete Maths with others. She is my first China friend.
Janet Ong. I would say I had a little crush on her for sometime. Perharps because of her child-like attitude. I admire her leadership capability though her communication capability is just okay. Me and Ken Wayne used to bully her during the 10th INTIMA term.
The following people, I would prefer not to expose their names but they have played a major role in my life. Love life. Though none of them I had a relationship with, love life is a major impact in me.
My first love, a Malay girl during Form Three. I cant really see how she has changed or impacted my life, but somehow because of her I made a decision that relationship with a Malay girl is a no..no.. I think you know why.
And then, during my Form Six, I liked a Chinese girl. I call her 'Morning Glory'. Perharps if some of you notice, my mechanical pencil was always a silver Morningglory brand. I would say that my choice of career changed because of her. I chose to study Quantity Surveying so that I could make some good money and propose her one day. But at the same time, after Form Six, I thought of priesthood too. That is very weird but true.
And I did my tuition at TAR College for STPM resit. I get only 2 principles so I went to resit STPM. There in TAR College, the hottest Chinese chic in my class, infact the whole of STPM classes, had crush on me. Now, I am supprised and can't believe as well as you, but it is a fact. Throughout my studies at TAR, I pretended like I dont notice that she likes me since I was still in like with 'Morning Glory'
At INTI International University College, I liked an Indonesian girl for sometime. This was not because I fell in love with her, but because I felt pity on her and of her emotional downfall. Because I have spent sometime listening to her stories, I was able to give my ears to listen to others' stories, complains, and grumbles. I was not a person that listen to people's heartbroken stories.
And finally, my current love. I already in love with her at first sight. I never believed in 'first sight love' but it has happened on me. But I always knew that I don't deserve her. Sometimes I hope that another girl would enter in my life or perharps my heart stop falling in love anymore. Why? These names are not the full list. This list contains some of my friends, crushes and my loves only. Infact, the list of my crushes is a lot more. Person like me, should not be in a commitment but rather just have a friendship. My father named me Anbuchudar that means, 'Flame of Love'. I am really Flame of Love, perharps. Hehe.
Every girls, friends, crushes, or love, has played some roles in every little things in my life. I had never forgotten them, and I pray and hope for blessings of good life for them.
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