I am Not Good as a Friend

When I was in Form Six, I was one of the leaders that lead the most of Form Sixers. I was then the President of Science and Maths Society. All of us were great friends and we did activities together most of the time. And as usual, I have always been the ‘thorn among the roses’. At sometime in the middle of the term, I proposed to joint-venture with the Rotary Club to do fund raise for both clubs and gave this task to a friend. But at the end, she couldn’t do her task, so I took over the project at the last minute though my members were against it, and finished the task. From that day onwards, many of the committee members and members, including the Vice President, have resigned their positions with no confidence vote against me. What hurt me the most is the friendship that I have spoiled. Most of them were not very friendly to me after this incident.

Again, in the college, some friends and I revived the Catholic Students Society (CSS) during the 11th INTIMA term. It was progressively getting bigger though we hardly have music during our gatherings. I met a lot of friends, and three of them became my personal great friends. I see them as the ‘Three Pillars of CSS Foundation’. Many of the members became my good friends, and we sometimes hung out together. But, again I screwed up the whole thing when I told somebody that I like that person. Definitely she freaked out, but I never thought that this could spoil the progressive bond among CSS members. Many of my friends then lost the family being in join CSS, since I was still there on the ‘chair’.

A few days ago, one of my friends opened his thought and commented on my behaviour that he kept for a long time in my guess. Though it was hurting, it was true in the sense of how my friend have been looking at me all this while. Once again, I feel that I should be ashamed on myself for not being a good friend.

Whoever might be right or wrong here but the point is I still hurting some people that I call them as friends. If just …